Pain ( Eyeless Jack x Tiki Toby)

Chapter 1

// sorry if this is bad, I'm not used to writing in first person also Tw for self harm if you didn't read the story summary //

   Toby's p.o.v.

I brought the sharp knife to my wrist, slicing the flesh. I shuddered as the pain went up my arm, it felt good. After making a few more cuts along my arm I heard a knock at the door. "Can I come in?" A low gravely voice came from the door. Jack. I stumbled off of my bed, knocking the knife down, it hit my desk and made a crashing sound i grimaced as I pulled down my hoodie sleeve to hide the fresh cuts. I quickly rushed to and opened the door "sorry about that, just caught me off guard a bit" I smiled, hoping he wouldn't notice me holding my sleeve down. "You're good, did slender tell you about the new rooming arrangements?" Shit. Yes, he did tell me that since we were supposed to get new proxies soon, Jack would have to share a room with me, I just didn't think he would come so soon.

"A yeah he did, come in" I said, still holding my sleeve down, slender had brought an extra bed for Jack a couple days ago. Jack nodded and walked to his bed and set him and his bag on the bed, his gaze shifted down slightly, oh shit. Jack saw the knife, still covered in my blood. "Toby." Jack said sternly, getting up and walking over to me "show me your wrists" he said reaching out to me. I sighed and pulled up my sleeve, showing him my fresh cuts, it felt nice to not have fabric on them, they were still bleeding. Jack frowned at them and turned away, walking back to his bag, rustling around, looking for something he hates me, he'll never love me like I love him, I thought hopelessly. Jack returned to me with a roll gauze and a bottle of liquid "just water " he said, catching my gaze as he poured some of the liquid on a cloth. Jack gently dabbed at my cuts, carefully wiping away the blood. He dried my arm and wrapped some gauze around my arm. "You should be more careful about this" he said, motioning to my wrapped arm "too deep and you could die........ I don't want you to die" he said solemnly, placing a hand on my cheek before realizing it and quickly pulling his hand away. I was grateful for my face guard in that moment because I could feel the heat rising to my face. "P-p-please don't tell anyone" my tiks acting up. "I won't" Jack said, turning his head to me as he unpacked.

"Dinners ready" Slender called from downstairs. Now that is think about it I was really hungry. "Come on, let's go get some food" I called to Jack as I left the room, I heard him quickly follow me downstairs, I made sure my sleeve was covering my bandaged arm before walking to the dining room, I grabbed a plate of food, spaghetti, and sat down in and empty chair next to Jeff, Jack sat on my other side, he didn't have much food on his plate. 

(Time skip because I'm a little lazy b!tch, still Toby's pov)

Burning. Fire. Smoke. Death. Trees. Running. Lost. Static. Eyes. Darkness.

I shot straight up in bed pop my neck made a large crack. I wrapped my arms around my knees and rocked back and forth, my neck cracking as I tried to calm down. I heard a rustle from across the room. Shit. I thought. Did I wake him up? "Toby?" Jack asked, his voice was low and concerned, I hadn't realized he had come to the side of my bed, he sat down in front of me. I calmed down a little, still breathing fast. I opened my mouth to say something but he stopped me "Sh. Sh. Sh. Calm down, breathe, it's ok, I'm here, it's ok" he said, pulling me into his lap. As he hugged me and calmed me down I slowed began to fall back into a restful sleep.