Pull the Trigger

End it all

I held the gun in my shaking hands, pointing towars him.

"No fear. Just pull the trigger." He said.

I can feel my heartbeat increasing, the air getting thicker by the minute, suffocating me. Why is he not fighting back? He is just standing there with his hands up and looking at me, his eyes never leaving mine. Those brown eyes that use to be full of love and warmth is now filled with dark coldness.

"Do it." He said with a cold voice.

"Why are you being like this? You really want me to kill you?! I screamed in frustration.

What is he trying to prove? Does he think that this is some kind of a sick joke? I am holding a freaking loaded gun in my hand, ready to shoot him and end his life. And all he does was stand there, looking at me with those cold pair of eyes. I can't read his face that is showing no emotion at all. Is he being serious? He really want me to shoot him? Can I even do that? I feel like I was at war with myself with so many questions running through my head. 

"Go ahead babe. Pull the trigger. I have no regrets. I'm ready" He said with a voice as cold as ice.

"Do you think I'm playing here? I'm about the kill you Jonghyun!" I screamed with tears streaming down my cheaks.

He still didn't move, just staring at me. My hand started to shake and I'm starting to lose focus. My breathing started to get difficult as I realised that tears were streaming down my face. I was crying so bad with my gun still pointing at Jonghyun, my lover. 

"I'm the enemy remember? This is your mission. You have to survive this. Its suppose to end this way."

"No! No its not! God Jonghyun can't we just runaway from here? Please I beg you! Don't make me do this..." I cried more as I took a step towards Jonghyun, putting my gun down.

My tears blinded my eyes and my breathing was uneven, suffocating me. I felt weakness creeping up on me, making my legs numb. I fell on my knees to the ground, letting my gun drop beside me. My hand clutched my painfully beating heart as tears continue to fall. I can't even look at Jonghyun right now.

"I...I can't kill you. Please don't..."

I was cut off by Jonghyun who pull me up into a warm embrace, his strongs arms wrapped around me. I felt his warmness as I burried my face in his firm chest and my hands wrapped around his waist. But still the burning pain in my heart did not fade away. I was too hurting me so much that I ended up crying out loud while Jonghyun was hugging me. His hands rub circles on my back, trying to calm me down.

" Iseul-ah, don't cry. Please don't cry."

"How can I not cry? I have to end your life in order to save mine. I can't do that! I rather die with you. How can you be so calm about this?" I said in between sobs.

"Shh shh...I love you Iseul. I love you so much that I'm willing to do anything for you, even if it cost my life." He said as he held me tighter.

I felt his lips on my head as he kissed my hair, his hands continue to comfort me with light pattings. Slowly he pushed me away so that he can lift my head to face his. His thumb softly wipe away the tears that are staining my cheaks. My glossy eyes met his beautiful brown orbs which stared deep into mine. He gave me a soft smile as he stroked my face. Looking into his eyes I felt the scorching pain in my heart disappearing, slowly I feel my body working normally again. He always had this effect on me. Always making me feel calm even when the situation is at its worse. In his arms, I always feel safe.

"You failed the mission. You know what that means right? You should've just kill me and walk away. It will be easier that way." Jonghyun said.

"No I rather choose this way. I rather die with you than to kill you. I love you Jonghyun. I can never have the heart to kill you." I said as tears start to form in my eyes.

Jonghyun pulled me against his chest again, his scent filling up my nose. Atleast if I were to die I would be in my lover's embrace. A tear slipped from my eye as I hugged Jonghyun tighter.

"They will be here any minute now. You ready?" He asked without breaking the hug.

"Yes."

"Before it ends Iseul ah, I want to say I never regret anything. I love you." He said as he stroked my hair.

I pulled back and looked at him.

"I love you too. Always."

Then we heard it, the sound of men running towards our location.

"We don't have much time left Jonghyun."

"I know that." He chuckled.

The sound of footsteps got louder as they were approching us soon.

"Jonghyun."

"Yes baby?" He said looking into my eyes lovingly.

"Kiss me"

And before I know it, we were surrounded by a group of men with guns in their hands. They aimed at us, ready to shoot. This is it. This is how its going to end for us. But I don't feel scared at all. Im not scared of dying at all. I looked into Jonghyun's eyes and I feel warm and peaceful. Slowly he leaned in and our lips met. His soft lips expertly kiss me with passion making my heart beat at a thousand's of miles per hour.

"This is going to be the last kiss." I thought in my mind.

Jonghyun wrapped his arms around my waist, pulling me closer. I tilted my head to the side to deepend the kiss, my hands wrapped around his neck. Then the gunshots were heard, bullets flew everywhere. I can feel them piercing through my body but I didn't feel pain at all. All I feel was Jonghyun's warm embrace. Our bodies fell to the bloody groud. I managed to look at Jonghyun one last time. He was looking at me, with blood dripping down his face.

"I love you" He whispered before closing his eyes.

I felt his arms loosen around me, his body has gone limp. But not long  after, I felt my heart beat start to slow down and my breathing got difficult. My eye lids grew heavy, black spots blinding my vision. Slowly, with the energy I had left in me, my hand reached out to touched Jonghyun's face.

"I love you too."

~End~

A/N Hey guys!! I hope you enjoyed my first ever oneshot. Please leave a comment! I love reading comments.