About a girl who dreams of a guy every night
She looks forward to sleeping every night just to see him cause he is the only thing that replaces her loneliness, she knows he isn't real , or what if
———————————————— LOCATION: ✨Dreams✨ Ever since what happened between me and Troy and was weird to dream, especially cause he looked so much like him, it felt weird cause I didn't want to be around him, or maybe I'm just overeacting?, idk why I'm avoiding Troy I actually just want to talk with him. I know that avoiding him more will hurt are friendship so I should talk to him tomorrow. "What's wrong" I turned to look at the guy who looks like Troy, he was looking at me with a concerned look on his face. I gave him a small smile "It's nothing just been feeling weird lately." He nodded and put his hand on mine, I looked at his hand and slid mine away from his, he frowned looking hurt, and turned away from me and we both sat down there in silence till the alarm clock rang in my ears.
TROYS POV I woke up and ran my hands through my hair fustrated and got out of bed to get ready, as I was brushing my teeth I kept thinking about abeni, I wondered why she kept ignoring me, what we did didn't seem that serious to me but I guess it affected her more than me. I was planning on inviting her to a party tonight, I was hoping we'll get a chance to talk more. I finished brushing my teeth and got ready for school and texted abeni goodmorning, I waited a few seconds for a response and sighed putting my phone in my pocket and continued getting ready. ABENIS POV Today I decided to step out of my comfort zone instead of wear my usual hoodie, I just put on a regular sweatshirt instead and looked at myself in the mirror, i tried to ignore those negative thoughts forming in my head and grabbed a jacket just in case. I arrived at school and entered my first class seeing Troy already at his desk he looked up from his phone and gave me a small smile, I forced a smile back and went to my desk and stared at him until class started. Mr. Edison wasn't here today which I was glad because he gave me the creeps, and the way he looked at me made me uncomfortable. The substitute was chill thankfully, after I finished the assignment the teacher assigned I pulled out a book reading it, after a few minutes I looked up and turned to Troys direction and saw him staring at me with a smile on his face, I jumped and saw him frown and chuckle to himself, I turned back to my book feeling embarrassed and felt my phone buzz against my hip, I took out my phone and saw my notifications and it was a text from Troy and it said "You look so cute when your surprised." My stomach squirmed at the message and I turned to look at him and he was still looking at me with an amused look on his face, I got nervous and started doing random things cause I didn't know how to react and saw him chuckling to himself as if he was entertained from what I was doing. When the bell rang I quickly packed my stuff trying to avoid Troy as much as I can after I embarrassed myself continuously in front of him.
LOCATION: Cafeteria I sat at the usual spot I sat at, I ate my food occasionally glancing up to look at my surroundings, I saw Troy walking towards me and I wiped my mouth quickly feeling embarrassed from how sloppily I was eating. Once Troy reached the table he sat down next to me and leaned against the table running his hands through his hair, I looked at him as he did that and wondered why he looked so cinematic when he did that. Troy turned his whole body toward me "So what's up?" He said looking at me, I shrugged not knowing what to say "Nothing much" he nodded and his face lit up. "I wanted to invite you to a party I'm gonna to tonight, will you please come I really want to hang out with you ever since y'know" I looked at his facial expression and his eyes bore into mine and he looked into my eyes as if he was searching for something. "Sure, i guess I'll go, but I doubt I'll have much fun" I shrugged and looked at the ground, Troy pulled me into a hug and whispered softly into my ear "Thank you for agreeing, I can't wait to hang out with you more." I let go of the hug and gave him a weak smile, for the rest of lunch we talked until it ended. ———————————————— LOCATION: home I looked through my closet trying to find an outfit to wear cause I wanted to atleast look good enough for the party. I got out a sweatshirt and a sweater vest and decided to wear that and I put on a skirt , I looked at myself in the mirror feeling self conscious about my thighs and how weird and big they looked in the skirt, I tried to ignore those thoughts even though they're was no point cause I was self aware that I was chubby. I put on some tights and and some shoes I picked out, and went outside to wait for Troy to pick me up, after 10 minutes Troy parked in front of my house and I walked over to his car and entered the passenger seat. I put my seat belt over me and turned to look at Troy who was looking at me, I looked at my outfit and back at him confused "What? What's wrong" I said with curiosity and was confused on why he had that look on his face, he shook his head "No it's just I think you look good is all." He said scanning my outfit, I nodded and pulled my skirt down a-bit still feeling self conscious. Once we reached the house where the party was at, I got out of the car clutching my shoulder against me, I walked inside the party and analyzed people's outfits and looked for where all the food was. After I found the food stand I grabbed some punch and sat in a corner drinking it occasionally getting seconds. Multiple hours passed by and I got up to go look for Troy cause I hadn't seen him, I went upstairs and opened the first door i saw and saw a guy and a girl doing y'know what and they both stopped moaning to look at me and I ended up slowly closing the door acting as if I didn't see anything. I reached the last door in the hallway and saw Troy fast asleep on the bed with a cup beside him, I sighed and pickup the cup smelling it and it smelled like alcohol. I walked over to Troy shaking him to see if he could wake up, I yelled his name which caused him to sit up rubbing his eyes and he looked at me, "Yeah? What happened?" He looked at me and I sat next to him, "I think you got drunk and fell asleep in here" he nodded to what I was saying and he sighed rubbing his forehead "Sorry for you having to see me like this, I don't expect to get drunk" he rubbed the back of his next looking embarrassed, I shrugged "It's okay I didn't think to much about it." He nodded looking at me "Thank you by the way" he looked at me his eyes trailing down my body , I tugged my shirt down more feeling more self conscious "No problem." His eyes lingered on me more and he leaned closer whispering "You look so good tonight " he said lowly looking at me intensely, I looked away feeling my cheeks flush up. Troy cupped my chin turning my face towards him back again, he had a smirk on his lips and he got even more closer than before and caressed my bottom lip with his thumb, "hmm.. your so fucking cute I could just eat you up" he said chuckling and kissed my cheek, I knew I was blushing a lot right now and I looked at him and saw the way he was looking at me and his pupils getting bigger, "Are you sure your not drunk" I said to him, he laughed and shrugged , I took that response as a yes and got up to go get him some water. I got back with water and handed it to him, "Can you drop me off at my house by the way? It's been a few hours and I'm tired." I said to him as he drank the water he nodded and stood up and grabbed his keys and we went downstairs together. As we were walking out of the house I saw the blonde blue eyed girl giving me a disgusted stare, I shrugged as she came over to us and she put her hand on troys shoulder and started talking to him, I noticed how she kept glancing back at me and she kept touching Troy and I could tell he looked annoyed, since I didn't really know what to do I just stood there awkwardly waiting for them to finish. I turned to look at them and she looked at me with a smirk and leaned up to kiss Troy on the lips, my heart sank and I looked back between the both of them and eventually just walked away instead and decided to call an Uber to take me home.
When I arrived home I just sat on my bed not knowing how to feel, I just stared blankly at my wall trying not to cry, I don't like crying it makes me feel weak, I'm not saying people who cry are weak it's just that when I was younger I was constantly told to stop crying so it's been engraved into my head that crying is weak. I laid my head on my pillow and kept staring blankly at my wall. I didn't feel like sleeping so I just stayed up all night staring at my wall. —————————————————- This chapter probably is my least favorite but oh well, imma be honest when it comes to writing sometimes I don't know how to execute what I want to write perfectly so it just ends up being awkward. But anyways I'm always open to feedback so let me know what you think about this chapter. Bye🙂
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