- 𝘕𝘌𝘞 𝘉𝘖𝘠 | 𝘙𝘪𝘯𝘯𝘦𝘺

" ɪᴍ sᴏʀʀʏ ʀᴏʙɪɴ "

𝘍𝘪𝘯𝘯𝘦𝘺 𝘉𝘭𝘢𝘬𝘦 𝘗𝘖𝘝
My brain seemed to explode inside my head as Robin pressed our lips together and kissed me.... my mind scattered as I so badly wanted to give in but..

what would dad think?..

how would my bullies react if they found out?..

As my mind folded into bad thoughts, I quickly pulled away and pushed myself off of Robin..

Finney: " I'm sorry Rob.. I-I.. I need to go.. "

I didn't give him any time to respond or even react to what I did, I just ran away as quickly as I could, my breath quickening as I sprinted out of his house again, I wasn't paying attention so I stumbled over my own two feet and fell on my face.

𝘙𝘰𝘣𝘪𝘯 𝘈𝘳𝘦𝘭𝘭𝘢𝘯𝘰 𝘗𝘖𝘝
I could barely even protest before Finney ran out of my room, I felt my heart drop from him sounding so... uncomfortable as he pushed me off of him.. what the hell is your problem?!!.. ugh.. I can't just let him run off.. I need to apologize. I didn't hesitate to quickly run out of my room and stumble down the stairs to reach the front door, I swung it open to see Finney.. he was on the floor, shaking badly as I heard him sniffling.. I quickly kneeled myself beside him,

Robin: " Finn-..? What happened..? "
I tried to grab his arm gently but he scooted away from me.. I felt my heart shatter but I had to pull myself together if I wanted to apologize.
Robin: "..please.. just.. I-..I'm sorry.. "
I felt my eyes get watery as I pushed my head down
Robin: " I.. I didn't mean to make you uncomfortable-.. I-.. I'm just so so sorry.. "
I waited for a response.. ANY response.. but it seemed hopeless.. I lifted my head again to look at Finney with my blurry, watery vision.. he was sitting up but facing away from me..
Robin: " Please.. ta-talk to me.. "
he hesitated..  but eventually he spoke up..
Finney: "..don't talk to me anymore "
My heart seemed to break into small pieces as I heard what he said.. I watched as he hesitantly stood up and quickly ran away from my house.

... I felt like the biggest piece of shit ever.

Because I was.

I'm a  fucking idiot.. to just.. Kiss Finney like that..?

I just wanted to go back in time and punch myself before I even grabbed Finney's hand.

I just stayed kneeling down on my sidewalk as my mind filled with dark thoughts about what'll happen now. I could barely even comprehend what my mom was saying as she came outside and kneeled down infront of me to try and talk to me, but I was too lost to even listen to her.

𝘍𝘪𝘯𝘯𝘦𝘺 𝘉𝘭𝘢𝘬𝘦 𝘗𝘖𝘝
Everything around me just seemed to fade away as I suddenly found myself in my room, as my body was pressed up against my locked door since my dad was yelling at me behind it, my body was shaking violently as my vision began to get foggy and I felt weak everywhere, my eyes continued to bawl tears from them as it felt hard to catch my breath, I finally sort of snapped out of my small zoned-our state and tried to walk to my bed but I stumbled horribly as I started to feel dizzy.. I tripped over myself again and fell onto my bed.. I felt so weak that all I could actually do was sleep, so I closed my eyes and fell asleep almost instantly.