Murder she wrote

Lost in my mind

TW Sexual assault, manslaughter, therapy, death

Andy opened her eyes as the sunlight hit her face. Her lips curled up a bit. She slept, she finally slept till the sun was up that hasnt happend in months. Above all she felt safe, safe enough to sleep for longer than one hour. Andy closed her eyes for a little while she cuddled up with the comfy blanket on top of her wanting this feeling of peace to last forever. After a bit she decided it was time to get up. She looked over at the sleeping man by her side, how can he be so attractive while sleeping. Her thoughts quickly changed back as she kept repeating to herself Andy he is your ex husband who is being here for you don't think about how sexy he is. shaking her head to get the thoughts out of her head she got up and walked over to the other side of her bed. "Thank you for staying" She whispered as she gave Robert a kiss on his cheek and walked towards her kitchen wanting to make some breakfast, that was the least she could do to thank him for staying.

Looking through her pantry and fridge there wasnt a lot of food to be found. Survival mode isnt the greatest for having guests over. She zoned out while making coffee and regained her focus again when she looked into the fridge one more time hopine somehow food suddenly appeared which didn't happen. The only thing she saw was an unorganized mess in her fridge. "I need to clean" she whispered to herself as she emptied the fridge and some cupboards. There was something calming, therapeutic even with reorganizing, cleaning and most of all keeping herself busy at all times.

"Good morning" Robert said sleepy as he walked into the kitchen rubbing his hands over his face trying to wake himself up a little more. When he opened his eyes he looked surprised from Andy to the kitchen and back at her "Andy did a raccoon break into your appartment?" Robert looked around in the messy kitchen. She quickly tried to grab some things to get it out of the way embarrassed by the mess she made. "Please don't manifest that. I guess i was the raccoon trying to make some breakfast but maybe i got annoyed with how unorganized the whole fridge and kitchen were so i may have forgotten about breakfast and started cleaning" still keeping her hands busy she walked from the sink to the fridge she was deepcleaning. "Can i help?" Robert couldn't help but giggle at the sight in front of him "No you just sit and relax" Andy grabbed a mug and poured some coffee for him. "Here i think you can use that. I'm sorry that i scared you last night i didn't mean to interupt your sleep"

"No need to be sorry. You get them often don't you" Robert asked her worried "everytime i close my eyes" she took a deep breath "that sounds exhausting, i wish i could help maybe even take the bad dreams away" he cringed hearing his own cheesy words. "You're helping. I... nevermind" Andy took a sip from her coffee hoping Robert wouldn't ask questions. "What is it?"He asked "I , it's nothing i shouldn't say this to you" silently cursing herself for saying too much hoping he would drop it. "Andy seriously?" He gave her a confused stare "I realized i still feel safe and at peace around you, i haven't slept this well since it happend. I'm worried you ruined me with your calm vibe" She vented "my calm vibe?" Robert smiled "I can't explain it you have that effect on me and that confuses me. I thought the only people that could calm me down during my breakdowns, nightmares and go on were gone but i guess you're still here" 
"I'm still here, i'm not going anywhere Andy" he repeated. Not sure how to respond she grabbed his hand. Looking down at their hands intertwined she felt the familiar tingle that was always there when they touched. The moment got ruined as Andy's stomach started growling. They bursted out laughing. "Okay that's it i'm ordering breakfast" Robert grabbed his phone and looked up their fave brunchplace. "You still into their french toast, bacon and orange Juice?" Andy nodded. "Ordered! it'll be here in 30 minutes so we should probably start organizing this mess" He nodded towards the kitchen "Robert you don't need to help just relax you've done enough" "i'm helping" he stood up and walked towards her in the kitchen " I mean how else will you be able to reach that high shelf?"