Going Back To Yesterday

20

OLIVER

"Is he awake?"

I slowly opened my eyes when I heard my mother's voice. When I fully opened my eyes, a white bright light welcomed me. I wasn't sure where I was, but I could smell the air of the hospital. I tilted my head and saw Mom with Sabrina and a little kid. 

"Daddy! You're awake!" the little kid ran and hugged me. 

My eyes widened. "Huh?" 

How on earth did I suddenly become a father? The last thing I could remember was I was put in a coma. I don't know how long it has passed but I just know that I miss her. I miss my Xanaya so much. 

I looked at Sabrina who was just looking down. After I got checked, Mom and the little kid that called me 'Daddy' went out. I was left with Sabrina inside the room. I looked at her again, waiting for her to explain. 

"I'm sorry, Oli... Pero hindi ko kasi kaya na malaman ng anak ko na wala siyang ama. Kaya I told her na ikaw ang tatay niya. But she's aware that we're not together... I know you already love someone else, and I also do." She explained. 

I sighed. "Sinong ama ng bata?"

"Si Liam," she started shaking like she was scared. "Liam doesn't know about this... Kaya please, even if you don't have contact with him, huwag na huwag mo sasabihin. That man's dangerous, alam mo 'yon."

My cousin is indeed the definition of danger. Bata pa lamang kami ay gulo na ang dinulot niya sa buhay ko. There was this one time that his toy broke and then he blamed it on me. But of course, I protected myself and told him that it was his fault. The next thing I knew, I was already admitted to the hospital because of a leg injury. 

But what scares me now is what he might possibly do to Xanaya. I was scared that he might hurt her. When I knew that he and Xanaya were friends, nagduda na agad ako. Liam isn't the person who makes friends. Lalo na kung babae. He had a plan. And that was to ruin my life, including the lives of the people around me.

When I got discharged from the hospital, agad akong nag-book ng ticket pabalik ng Pilipinas. I don't have any idea where she is... But I'll find her. Andami kong pagkukulang sa kanya. Babawi ako. Babawiin ko ang tatlong taon na nasayang ko. 

I went to Batangas, wala na siya roon. I didn't know where she could possibly be kaya nagpunta na lang ako sa Manila. Pinuntahan ko ang lugar kung saan nakakaramdam ako ng comfort. But I bought flowers first. 

"Hey there," I placed the flowers on her grave. Pinagpagan ko pa ang grave niya kasi napuno na ng dahon. "How are you, my Rylie?"

Ang tagal na pala simula ng iwan niya ako. Kamusta na kaya ang kapatid ko sa langit? I hope she's happy there. Yeah, it hurt me when I lost her... But at least I know that she's not suffering from her condition anymore. I've been diagnosed with the same condition as her. I'm not scared of death... I'm scared about what the people I love would feel if I leave too.