Sorry I can't Stay

I can't be with you

3 months later...

I entered our house and was greeted by silence.

It seems my aunt is still at work.

Do you wonder why i live with my Aunt? My parent's are dead... And now i'm living with the only living relative I have - my mother's sister.

I felt my phone vibrate and when I looked it was Jiyong.

"I'm outside..." He answered as soon as he knew I picked his call.

"Fine come in...." I said. I was surprised when He walked in and he placed a bouquet in my hands.

"For You... My Angel." I pouted.

"Stop with the cheesiness , can't you see its making my skin crawl..." I answered and he just laughed.

"Come on... I know you love it..." He said and showed me this boyish smile I started to love seeing.

" I would rather you give me money..." I answered with a grin and he laughed.

"Marry me and you'll have all the money you want..." I felt my smile slowly dropped and he saw it.

"Just kidding... About the marrying bit. But maybe someday... You believe me when i say I really do love you right?" He asked.

And just like always - i didn't answer. And he didn't push the topic further.

I finally believe that he genuinely love me...

and i know a small part of me wants me to tell him that i love him too.

But everything is not as easy as it seems. I know me...

my limitations....

My choices....

my future...

I'm sick ....

Cancer....

And this time I won't be able to survive it.

We thought we finally beat it 6 months ago. We celebrated and i get to have one of my wish granted - to go back to a regular school.

And then after my monthly check up yesterday - the doctor confirmed it... It's back.

And it seemed to come back deadlier.

and I hated it...

maybe a part of me knew it would come back - maybe that's why i don't wan to let anyone get close to me.

that's why i didn't want to fall in love.

I talked to my aunt yesterday and decided that its enough.

I'm done with chemotherapy and radiation theraphy.

I'm accepting my fate.

She cried...

And even last night when i went to get water and passed by her door - i heard her broken sobs. I'm the only family she got left.

i looked back at Jiyong.

He was staring at my face... I noticed his hand slide on top of the counter toward mine - and rather what i usually do, i let him hold it.

He was surprised but didn't question the change. He was just smiling happily as he looked at our intwined hands.

"We can't be together..." I softly said. He looked up questioningly.

"Why not.?" He asked as he sat up straighter.

"I'm leaving..." I answered.

He looked torn - what more if i said I'm dying.

"No!" He aswered.

"I'm not asking you... I'm telling you." I felt my eyes water.

"Why are you leaving?" He asked holding to my had tightly.

"It's complicated..."i answered and i can't seem to continue looking at him so i looked down.

And with my action - i saw my tears splattered down the table.

I stood up and walk to his side. He stood up and took my face in his hands.

"Tell me you're kidding... Please." He begged - he seemed to realized this is all for real.

I'm saying goodbye...

I watched as his tears fell down. I raised my hands to wipe it away as I shook my head.

"I'm sorry.... But we'll never see each other again." I cupped his cheek in my hand and he leaned on it holding it close with his other hand.

I heard a car in the driveway - my aunt is home.

i stepped forward nearer him and tip toed.

I saw the surprise in his eyes but i closed mine when his lips touched mine.

I pulled back when i heard my aunt shout-

"Dara i'm home!"

"In the kitchen !" I shouted.

She knew Jiyong- he's been coming over here a lot since we started hanging out.

"I just said my goodbye's to him. I'll be leaving tomorrow." I told her and I knew she understood.

"Dara..." Jiyong whispered.

"Bye Jiyong... Thank you for everything." I turned around and ran to my room.

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is it a happy ending?

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