Poems Or Declamation

The Little Miss Perfect.. (declamation)

All I wanted was a family...
The one that actually cares about me.
All my parents think about is for me to obey them.
I always try to. But I guess I'm always gonna be a problem
...
I try to perfect my grades
But my mother doesn't want her time to be wasted.
I try my best to impress her.
But her expression always begin to turn into anger.
My father once tried to stop her from beating me up.
But eventually just gives up on me.
He then just walks to turn his back away from us.
Leaving me with more grief.
I've always tried to leave.
But. It always fails leading to scars I'll have to hide under my sleeves.
But I still try to keep my face happy.
Even if I don't feel that way.
In the grass with peace. I just wanna lay.
I just wanna get this obstacles out of my way!
But.. Everytime.. It always just turns back.
Not enough intelligence. Not enough strength.
Need to find a way. To get out of this hell.
I just wish I could be dead.
I just wish It could decrease the pain.
I just wish I can hide my tears in the rain.
It's. All. A. Dream.
....
Oh.
Why do I feel this way again?
My body is just moving on its own.
I suddenly saw flashing lights.
I.. Heard screaming..

.....

In the hospital. I awake.
Wishing that I just drowned myself at the lake.
Why do I have to do this again?
Mother..
Please. Let me go. I don't want a hear your apologies that will only brainwash me into your manipulative hands again.
Just
Let
Me
Go.

Like how you let go of my sister.

PLEASE! JUST LET ME GO MOTHER. I DON'T WANNA HEAR YOU SPEAK!
I.. Saw her face.. From grief to anger.. She doesn't understand.
A slap across of my face appeared.
that's.. That's the reason why father left you! YOU CANNOT EVEN UNDERSTAND YOUR OWN DAUGHTER! YOU'RE MIRESABLE... BUT WHY DO YOU STILL HAVE TO DRAG ME INTO YOUR GODDAMN PROBLEMS, MOTHER? I'VE GAVE YOU CHANCES.. CHANCES TO APOLOGIES... BUT WHY?? WHY ARE YOU STILL DOING THIS...??!

Suddenly...
A single. Drop of tear. Fell down her face. Showing that she actually paid attention for one second...

I'm sorry. My daughter. I've mistaken.

No.
I've already had enough.
Then, my Aunt rushed into the room. Yelling that she got the whole thing recorded.

I don't understand.. Why I felt relieved..
Is this good or bad? But..
Atleast..my own mother is.. Away..

Now you have heard it.
Do you think it's easy?
No.
It isn't.
Now I just wanna lay in peace.

(454 words 🙂)