This is my sisters book hope you like it comment for more thanks : ) egnor any spelling mistakes
Chapter one
I was sat there staring blankly at the text, waiting for the hurt , but it wasn't coming.The only thing that was the cold wisp of disappointment. It was 3:30pm on a Friday night and my boyfriend had dumped me by text. Once again i was left broken but there was no pain, it was only yesterday that we were together on the field.
I had met him at school, i remember the day , it was cold and gloomy and the sky was littered with black clouds. I stood there and waited getting more nervous as each minute past. We had already met and gone out before but this time round his grandad didn't approve as he thought i would get hurt by him again (god how right he was ). I was standing there in the freezing cold and then i saw him, he was wearing all black (as always) a black tracksuit and trainers and he was smiling my favourite smile, well smirk really but it was so cute. as he got closer i could see his eyes, they were a gorgeous ice blue and his hair was Short and ash brown.
His smile said everything, he pulled me too him and at a long last i was in his warm, strong arms. He kissed me and took my hand it was like walking in heaven, i loved him so much.
Now he has left me, i don't feel anything but a useless disappointment in a pit of despair. there wasn't anything that i could do! his grandad was right. I'm just a fool for believing other wise and because of my stupidity and stubbornness i was going to suffer.
Walking down the stairs in a trance like a state i pulled on my coat and went for a walk. i was the only one in the house, my mother and father had gone out, taking the children with them. This was a good thing because i doubted that i could talk to anyone in a reasonable manner.
As soon as i got out the door the pain hit me like a tonne of bricks. it started in my heart, the pain was unbearable but i walked and walked through it. when i got to the field it brought back so many memories. i couldn't cope with the pain, it was spreading rapidly making my legs buckle and hurling me to the ground. all i could feel was the pain, as though someone had ripped out my heart and shoved it back used, torn and ripped apart. i didn't know how i was going to cope, then it started to rain. i couldn't get up, i was stuck there on the floor, the cold from the rain burning through me like fire but not lessening the pain just making it worse.
I was frightened and unable to move my legs pooled around me, i seen only one figure and i wished it would go away. not that i didn't want to be saved, i didn't want that boy who was coming to wards me and would see me like this. it was a previous boyfriend, not the one that i had just split up with but one that frightened me half to death. he was facing me, stunned i yelled at him to go away. "so you would rather me leave and let you stay here in this state?" i rolled my eyes as he walked closer, again i yelled at him to stay away, he scared the hell out of me. i couldn't look at his eyes as they were always black like coal and they scared me to death, he was always so cold and had harshness in his voice.
He ignored my requests and came and picked me up "I'm not going to leave you here you'll get hypothermia or worst drowned in the pool that is forming around you". he felt different, for once he was warm and his voice had lost that harsh tone.he sounded like he had made a joke and was laughing, which shocked me because when we re together he never laughed, he used to snarl like vicious, wild animal. "just take me home please". he started walking and held me close as not to drop me.
He finally got me home, he took me straight to my room and laid me on the nice warm, crisp sheets he needed no introduction to the house which scared me as he never been to this house i moved shortly after we broke up. i looked at him in detail he was so different, he had changed in size, he was much taller that before and his face had more life. his eyes were no longer cold and black as coal they were warm and a butterscotch colour. he looked around and started laughing "what are you laughing at? " your room, you must really like that twilight film!" he smirked but it wasn't an evil smirk like he had when we went out it was a nice smirk. "well yeah of course i do, i don't know a teenage girl that doesn't" i smiled and he smiled back, his eyes twinkled like stars in the clear night sky.
"You have changed" his he accused, dropping his smile in the process. "i don't know what you mean?" he looked confused by my statement. "your not well you. you're not what you use to be your different. what happened to you?" the smile came back to his face only for a second and then he gestured to the bed "can i sit down?" i just nodded he sat and looked at his feet for a while then spoke his voice wasn't soft and gentle like it was before but it wasn't quite hard and sharp it was somewhere in the middle he sounded some what hurt. "do you remember when we broke up? how crushed, battered and beaten you were?" i just nodded that was the reason we broke up. he was always harsh with his words but he had never beaten me until that day i was a mess i remember it all to well my blond hair was red with the blood.it wouldn't come out that's when i dyed it brown with hints of red from the blood.
I told my mam i fell but i knew she didn't believe me though she never did anything about it. "yeah well so do i" he looked at me i could see the hurt and pain in his eyes "i never wanted to hurt you i didn't want to i was in a bad place back then, but when you left me. i knew that i had done you wrong and wished so much that i could take it all back so i reformed myself in hope that i would see you again so that i could say that i was and still am sorry" i looked at him startled at what he said he never apologized for anything even when he knew it was wrong.
"i never wanted you to change i just wanted to have you for you not for the person you though you had to be!" i startled myself at what i just said i cant believe that i had said that i wasn't even lying to him. he smiled a breath taking smile " i have missed you nonsense babble" he laughed and looked down at hands mine still captured by his "most of all i missed you.by the was what happened to your hair i liked your golden brown straight hair?" i smiled and frowned but he couldn't see. "when you beat me up the blood got in my hair and wouldn't come out so i had to dye it" there has a hint of hurt in my voice I'm just so glad my voice didn't crack like i thought it would. he looked up at me so i could see the horror in his face but he didn't really look at me he looked at my brown and now curly hair thanks to the rain. "i did this" he tuck one hand from mine and stroked my head and the warmth shot through me like lightning though it wasn't painful though it was affective. i nodded i didn't trust my voice nor did i want to look at him but the mask of horror pained me to much i wanted to comfort him and tell him it was OK i never liked my hair that colour anyway.
He shuck his head and surprise me by pulling me in for a hug i felt his warmth his sincerity and most of all his love.he was holding me so close and tight that i wouldn't be surprised if i became combined with him. he pulled me just far enough away that he could rest his for head on mine i was now on his knee which scared me and made me feel loved,something i hadn't felt in a long time. then i got lost in the moment the next thing i knew we were kissing the kiss was warm, passionate and his kiss wasn't filled with eagerness and filled with sexual tension like it used to be it just felt like he loved me and i felt protected as we pulled apart gasping for breath he opened his mouth to say something and my bed room door swung open and there he stud.
