The Life I Live

PROLOGUE

Twirling the shot glass in her hand she dreaded the events that would have to take place soon. It was a hassle being the person she was. It was either keep up with the world or be another bitch out here with nothing going on for herself. She wasn't allowing that. There was nothing or no one that could make her go back to being the little girl that craved attention or depended on people to do things for her.

"Icelynn" hearing her name she took her shot to the head and sniffed. She was named after her grandmother on her fathers side. "We been looking for you come on girl, you up next!" Marissa, a fellow employee grabbed her hand and nearly made her trip trying to hurry to the back.

"Damn rissa you see I got these heels on" Icelynn said, snatching her hand away and mentally rolling her eyes. Marissa crossed her hands over her chest and looked Icelynn up and down debating on snapping or not.

"Bitch don't get no attitude with me I'm tryna help you, you know mike don't play dat shit" shifting her weight onto her right leg she looked down and bit her lip, Marissa was right. "While you at the bar reminiscing about whatever he running round the back bout to shit on hisself cause you was sposed to be on stage five minutes ago" Icelynn couldn't help the laugh that slipped from her mouth.

Sighing, "you right rissa, thank you" Icelynn started to walk away but was stopped.

"Look, I know it's hard doin this shit and if you don't wanna be here leave this shit, you graduated from college Icelynn you got a degree in nursing bitch why are you here" Marissa questioned. "A bitch like me stuck here I got three kids, I got no choice but you Icelynn, you different girl you can make it out dis shit and be bigger just please don't get too caught up in this shit" Marissa pulled Icelynn into a hug and rubbed her back.

"Ight, y'all settle down I kno it's a lil hot in here but we about to cooolllll it down" They broke away from the sentimental hug hearing Icelynn's announcement to come on stage. Ro James- A.D.I.D.AS began to blast through the speakers. Icelynn walked onto the stage, feeling over her body in a sexy way.

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Walking into the club Freddy carried two bottles in his hand while his chains swung side to side. His aroma was strong as soon as he walked through the door, gaining attention from all the women. His boys hung to his back making sure nobody looked suspicious in any way. The club was a big deal tonight, the weekend was just getting started. He looked to his left, stopping in his tracks.

His demeanor had suddenly changed seeing Icelynn on stage. The way her body moved to the song, the way she complimented the scene it was like she was living in the moment. Feeling somebody tap his shoulder he snapped out of his trance and looked to see who it was.

"Yo, you good I been saying yo name for the past five minutes" deon, his long time friend said. "You looking at that hoe ain't it" he chuckled before shaking his head.

"Mannn, these hoes ain't no good here jus throw some money and let's go we ain't come here to wife no bitch dis ain't love at first sight nigga"

"Deon.. shut the fuck up" he walked pass him and went to the section that was already reserved for him. Deon got on his nerves at times with the way he talked, he was childish but that was his homeboy since they were younger. They were like cousins.

"That bitch is sexy" deon laughed and followed behind Freddy. Freddy dat down on the red leather couch, pouring him a drink. Soon, strippers started pouring in left to right and when his eyes landed on her he instantly licked his lips. Marissa caught his stare and smiled. She had noticed one of the other strippers heading towards Freddy so she began to stumble his way as if she was drunk.

"Excuse me?! You almost knocked me over hoe" the stripper said nudging Marissa.

"Marissa!" Icelynn said, rushing to her side to make sure she was okay. "Bitch you was barely drinking, you alright?"

"Get that drunk ass bitch outta here"

"Come on girl lemme help you" Icelynn looked at the dude and rolled her eyes in disgust.

"N-no bitch I g-got it" she giggled and stood up in a way that seemed as if she was intoxicated. "Y-you stayyyy right here" smiling Marissa grabbed one of the bottles and skipped out the section, leaving Icelynn right in front of Freddy.

"Sorry about that it's a busy night" She apologized, putting a piece of hair behind her ear. Freddy who was still quiet scanned her up and down. She was short and plump in all the right places, making his mouth water.

"Okayyy" she turned around and he grabbed her hand, rubbing his thumb over her knuckles. An action that made her heart beat in a very weird way. His hands were rough but they made her soft hands feel completely balanced.

"Can I get a dance" he asked and she nodded her head, swaying her hips side to side. She grabbed her top strap peeling it off a bit as he sat back and enjoyed the show. Freddy took in her face and smiled, showing off his white teeth. She sat her ass on his lap and leaned back into him, moving her hair out his face.

"What's yo name" he whispered.

"Icelynn" he stopped her from dancing and lifted her off his lap. Freddy looked around the section for deon.

"Ay D, I'll be back" deon was too busy getting attention from one of the strippers he jus shooed Freddy away. Leaving the section, the two of them went somewhere where only they would be. He wanted Icelynn to himself for the remaining of the night.