I look at my life and wonder? I wonder does anyone know what true love is? What does it mean?Today,that's what I sit here thinking, wondering, crying about. Is true love when you are parted from someone and you can't possibly seem to get them out of your head.Is it?If it isn't then tell me,please tell me what is. See what you don't know about me is that I've grown a habit of "dating" people just to feel loved.Well let me rephrase that,I "dated" this one person because they loved me but I didn't love them if I had to be honest with my self.I like the feeling of being loved quite frankly.See this all started about 2 years ago,I meet the most enthusiastic,carrying, funny guy I've ever met.He's the type of guy that you had to say nice things about a person and there were a couple hundred, you'd run out or words.When I first met him he was a tough cookie (one that was left in the oven too long)it wasn't because he was mean, no it was because he was strong minded.I saw later that that wasn't quite a bad thing.I loved him...I think I possibly still do.Anyway,I'm getting ahead of myself;Well me and this guy went to school together,and after proving I wasn't ghetto (you know another statistic that I have to face every day as society proves it's against me at every turn)we became friends. After about 9 months we became a couple. Sadly we broke up a month later.Why try to date with such a now obvious shaky foundation you might wonder,I saw the potential in us and I liked him a lot at the time.See, I saw it when I first laid eyes on him;I knew that we'd end up together. So,after that school year ended,I was crushed but happy.I got to kiss the guy of my "dreams" and it was as magical as I'd hoped.I was happy because even though we'd broken up,on the last day of school I kissed him;and left him completely surprised. The summer passed and his best friend and I got real aquainted even so that we dated for 3 months. I know,I know,I broke the code but things happen.The School year started and I see him,he looks happy.His friend and I had a mutual agreement that it's not meant to be,therefore we break up.Two months later the original guy whom I'm going to call Dlewie for now asked me out AGAIN!! I say YES,this takes place in November. We both try and make our schools basketball team,and our last game his parents and I officially meet. What you don't
know is that year our last game was in February. It seemed like everything was against me that night because the girls lost,I had got hurt,and I had been sweating.Such a good first impression right? So the whole time his father is talking to me, so far so good. Then my friend asks a very idiotic question considering the circumstances. At the time Dlewie and I weren't allowed to date. Back to my friend, she asks (out loud and in front of his dad) "So Kei,how long have Dlewie and you been dating?" When she'd asked that I was temporarily like a deer with headlights. I didn't know whether to lie or tell the truth,so I did what I thought was best at the time;so I......
I told the truth.I said to them well "we've been dating, since November?"To that his dad replied " really since November and we're just finding out. "
