Bloom and Rain

Afterglow (Bloom in Rain)

"Bloom, let's go." He gently held my hand to guide me, I looked up to him and he immediately smiles, his dimples were showing. I sighed.

Years have gone and I'm still weak for those two deep holes in his cheeks whenever he throws me a smile. "It's cold out here, hindi maganda para sa arthritis mo." He jokingly said teasing me, at kahit ilang taon ang nag daan umiikot parin para sakaniya ang aking mga mata, not in a sensual way jusko po. Pwede rin naman. Haha.

"Tara at gawin na natin ang ating daily rosary para sa ating mga apo na nasa Canada. Martes ngayon, huwag mong kakalimutan." Sabi pa nito na ikina-ilingan ko. Siya naman itong nakakalimot at hindi ako, but I love my life, I love doing this everyday, and I love him most.

Habang iginigiyak niya ako papunta sa salas ay napadaan kami sa kwarto na puno ng mga ala ala namin, napangiti ako, napabalik tuloy ako noong una naming pagkikita.

It was my first day of school nang may bumangga sa akin, irita ko itong binalingan, hindi pa talaga nag sorry! Napaka bastos! Nang nabalingan ay kailangan ko pang i-angat ang aking ulo dahil medyo may katangkaran ito, "Sorry po." Sabi ng binata at madaling umalis na tila may hinahabol, I sighed and composed myself nalang.

First day ko pa naman sa bagong school ko, ayaw kong mabwiset at mawala sa mood. Nang maging okay ang aking lagay ay agaran kong pinulot ang mga kagamitang nahulog.

Noong first day ko ay hindi ko pa siya kilala, at nang makilala  ay nahumali ako sa kaniyang husay sa pag lalaro ng mga sports. Ngunit dahil madalas magkasama sila ng kaniyang girlfriend noon ay hindi ko na ito pinagtuunan ng pansin.

But during summer Rain and Sel broke up, it was a huge issue in our school, at nang nagbalikan na ang klase ay usap usapan parin ito. Na curious ako at madalas siyang pinapanood sa kaniyang mga laro kahit na sa ibang baranggay.

One day he approached me, "Uy titingin na naman ang aking number one fan." Ngisi nito. Kumunot ang noo ko sakaniya, ang yabang. "Oh bakit ka nagagalit? Lagi kaya kitang nakikita sa mga laro ko." Pag tawa pa nito na aking inirapan, pero mas lalo lang itong tumawa. "Ang assuming mo naman, ikaw lang ba pinapanood ko?" I asked.

"Oh? Kung ganoon, para kanino ka nanonood?" Tanong niya, napa iwas naman ako ng tingin nang tumitig ito sa aking mga mata na nakangiti, syempre ay naiilang ako kasi ang pogi niya lalo na't nakikita ang kaniyang dimples! Ang daya!

But after that interaction, dahil sa nararamdamang kakaiba ay hininto ko na muna ang pagpapanood sa kaniyang mga laro. It had me weak and confused, well as a young girl that came from a conservative family, i chose to avoid him.

Hindi naman niya ako binabagabag kapit pa nagkikita kami sa hallways ng school. (Mga 3rd year high school to 2nd yr college) That school year passed pretty fast, that was also the year he dated his soon to be long term girlfriend, they went on till second year of college. How'd I know? Because as usual, people in our batch were talking about it, then napunta saakin.

I didn't really care, at that time I never really had stable feelings for him either. Second year was the most difficult year for me, namatay ang aking lolo at nagkasakit si daddy. We had to sell our house and live with our lola for awhile. My mom and lola never had the best relationship, so every night I always hear my parents fight.

My mental state was not in its best condition, and I was pretty irritated always, so I tend to stay away from everyone,  including my friends. I was too depressed at home so instead I busied myself with schoolworks and wouldn't stop studying.

So in my second year, we never really talked, I heard he broke up with his gf but I just let it pass my ears because I didn't really care. Kapag dismissal ay hindi ako agad umuuwi at umaakyat sa rooftop ng school para magpahangin, wala kasing estudyante na pumupunta dito kaya payapa.