Failure

Fail?

Hi! This is my first time writing bcuz I just can't tell this to anyone but it really needs to be taken out I'm giving my icse boards this year and I suck at maths and science I can't study these subjects no matter what but yet I studied really as much as I could but yet I wrote paper very horribly I didn't even attempt 50 marks maybe I'm so worried I'm Gonna fail I'm 90% sure I'm going fail what am I gonna do on the results day???
What if I fail?? These questions haunt me day and night every moment I can't be happy imagining the look on my mom dad's Face when they will see the result the Embarrassment on their faces only because Of me all my friends who already think I'm dumb will be so happy deep down
I'm a failure a day before result I'll kill myself cuz that's easier than giving compartment exams. I fail I quit