"Seriously?" he said in disbelief, tears started forming in his eyes.
"I'm sorry Kasa" Rui reached for Tsukasa's hand and held it. Tsukasa snatched his hand away from him
"Great timing, Rui." Tsukasa wiped his face with his baggy sleeves making it ruined and all sloppy
"Don't cry... Kasa..." Rui tried to reach for him again but Tsukasa just pushed him away
"Haha... Don't cry. DON'T CRY??" Tsukasa mocked Rui for what he said "How could you say that?" This made Tsukasa cry even more
"Don't you know how hard I've tried?" Tsukasa looked Rui in the eyes "How I tried to cover up my shit life?" Tsukasa's voice was trembling after each word he said
"And you know what the worst part is?" Tsukasa hesitated for a moment, making Rui worry about what he was about to say
"I wouldn't *hic* even care if there were problems with your family" Big tears formed in his eyes "I *hic* wouldn't have cared if you were thought of as a mistake" Tsukasa bawled his eyes out "I wouldn't even have cared even if you stabbed me and apologized right after" His head slumped down, and his vision was all blurry
"All I wanted was you," Tsukasa said straight forward "But you know *hic* what you did? Threw me away." Tsukasa gripped Rui's shirt with anger and sadness
"And now I see you hanging out with your new group, just as if WxS didn't happen" He began tugging Rui's shirt aggressively while Rui couldn't muster up the words to say anything
"I wish you weren't happy, I wish you weren't just a little" Tsukasa dug his face into Rui's chest while tears made his clothes wet but at that moment Rui didn't notice nor cared at all
"Even now.. Even when I can't stand the sight of you..." Tsukasa trembled as he clenched his fists
"My hands can't help but cling to you for comfort." Tsukasa patted his chest, Rui was distraught when Tsukasa said this yet he still couldn't process everything
"I'm really fucking happy for you, Rui. You're doing amazing" Tsukasa couldn't even look Rui in the eyes anymore, they were all puffy and Tsukasa couldn't bare looking at him after what happened
"Everything that could've gone wrong for us, did... And I can't afford to go through it again" Tsukasa began to smile as his tears were streaming down his face
"So please, let's really be strangers from now on hm?" Tsukasa forced a smile on his face
A sudden feeling of despair was cast over Rui as he felt regret but he knew it was all his fault
"I'm really tired of crying over you, Rui" Tsukasa barely could get the words out of his mouth
Step, step, step.. "Tsukasa, I-"
Rui grabbed Tsukasa and hid behind a structure, it was an instinct because he heard someone walking out
"Gahhh, Fresh airrrrrrr, finally" A person said "Shhh" Rui whispered as he covered Tsukasa's mouth
A couple of minutes flew by, Rui and Tsukasa were hiding behind a building listening to the muffled sounds of the people that just gone outside
Step, step, step, step... "Phew, I think they le-" Tsukasa pushed Rui aside, interrupting him. He began walking out
"Tsukasa? Kasa? Wait-" Rui grabbed his arm "Are you really going to walk away without hearing what I have to say?" Tsukasa stopped in his tracks
"I'm really sorry. I'm really sorry for being selfish in the past" Rui said hesitating a bit "I'm sorry for always being an idiot" Rui's words began to tremble
"If you don't want to talk, I won't talk to you. If you don't wanna be friends, I'll... respect that..." He felt a burning sensation in his eyes
"But please... Don't ask me to treat you like we're nothing to each other" Tsukasa slowly turned around "We can talk about it now"
"Talk about it? You lost your chance to talk about it a year ago." Tsukasa snatched his arm back "You think I'm upset you had to leave?" Tsukasa laughed "I'm not upset over that, I respect why you had to. I would never be upset at you because of that" Tsukasa looked at Rui's tearful face
"I'm upset because you kept secrets from me, Rui" Tsukasa began to cry again "I'm upset because, over that past year, I thought I was the one who drove you away" Tsukasa sobbed
"I'm upset because, after all that we've been through, you still couldn't give me a proper goodbye" Tsukasa sniffled "You could've left me in so many different ways yet you chose the worst one possible" Tsukasa held Rui's hand up "Do you still think I should give you another chance?" Them both crying now
"I understand your situation, Rui but I still can't forgive you, not yet" Tsukasa put Rui's hand against his forehead
"Whenever we're together, it just hurts us both" Tsukasa mumbled "So I'm asking, no I'm begging you... Let's really go our separate ways..." Tsukasa sobbed even more after saying this, deep down it hurt so bad, Rui's face was stunned
"I don't want anything to do with you anymore," Tsukasa said and Rui was in utter shock and disbelief. His heart weighed down and it felt heavy
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Rui POV
I tried to save us... I really wanted to tell you that I tried, Tsukasa
But it was too late. You resent me not for the things I did... But for the things I did not.
How can I try to save us..
When there is no more us?
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"I don't want anything to do with you anymore"
