Chapter 5: Unspoken

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by Rexsalt

by Rexsalt

God P.o.V

It was following him, he knew it was... he knew he deserved it. He was outside, a tiredness resting in his arms, he was training, what for? He couldn't tell anymore, for his own needs... no, the worlds... no, god knew they did not need a new arrogant hero, he was doing it because what else could he do. No friends, no hope, no future and no family.

They had stopped speaking since it had happened, now the only person he had to speak to was himself and 'him' but he knew this is what he knew he deserved, what had changed him for the better. It's not like they knew his involvement just that it was a shock to them all.

He started pounding on the heavy bag in front of him, the pain in his arms depriving his brain of the energy to remind him that he needed it to happen, to change him, to stop him being monster he was becoming, that he became.

After it happened he wasn't offered help, only apologise that the tragedy happened before him. maybe he wouldn't feel the same and guilt he feels now if he had spoken to others, though he doubt he would of accepted it at the time, he still felt powerful at that time, the world had proven that he was the great Bakugo Katsuki or that was until he appeared, demanding his full attention and using it to prove how small he really was in this big world, he was the same as everyone else, no smaller than them. For he was the one who didn't want to be put with them so instead of reaching higher he pushed himself lower.

He started to feel the stinging in his arm getting worse, creaking and cracking but why should he stop, they felt worse than this every day yet did they complain, did they shout, no they bottled it up, they were the stronger person, he should follow their footsteps, take influence from the, they were so so strong.

AN: I will explain so thing that may included spoilers for later chapters so skip until you see a |

|I wanted to make Bakugo a person we see go deeper and deeper into self destruction, until he either bursts or gets help, but I am still undecided on which one I do.

In this chapter I wanted to display two sides of Bakugo, whether I was to obvious with that I do not know. One of Bakugo's sides I wanted to be the one who thought that it was still a good thing from Izuku's death that even if he didn't think that him dying was good that he was out of his way, but that they could benefit from his death that they could learn from it. The other side was one that wanted to get past the death make up for it and we will see more of it in a later chapter, and the thing this side of him is still torturing him, not mentally but physically it is what pushes him to train when he does not need to when he is still at his limit, using the pain he feels now to justify the pain Izuku felt then. |

Thank you for reading this shitty, angsty book I hope you have a great day :)

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