Hooded boy - J.JK

I need you

I can't erase her from my head.... I feel like every person is just not like her, they don't understand the way she does.
I had tried to pretend that everything was okay. threw myself into work and tried to distract myself with other activities, but nothing could fill the void that she had left behind.
her smile, her laugh, the way she changed everything, way she could always make me feel better, no matter how bad things seemed.

staring blankly at the television screen but not really watching anything.
My mind was elsewhere, lost in thoughts of her. I couldn't shake the feeling that something was missing from my life after moving away, something that I desperately needed.

her.

I need her.

For ages now, we had been best friends, inseparable in everything we did. We laughed together, cried together, and shared our deepest fears and hopes with each other. We were each other's rock, the one constant in our lives that we could always rely on.

But now she was gone out of sight and I felt lost without her.

Everything felt different now, as if the colors had faded and the world had lost its luster.
I tried to tell myself that i was being ridiculous, that i was just missing her and that it would pass with time, but knowing deep down that it was more than that. 

I knew I had to be this person who is strong enough, I never showed myself as weak, it was
Embarrassing

Talking on the phone with her was a challenge of not to break down because it felt horrible to cry and make her sympathise over something so useless and make her feel like she couldn't do anything and then she would feel horrible for not helping...
I didn't need that

I was talking to her, well listening when all of a sudden it went silent, and i decided to speak..

"I need you"
my  voice barely above a whisper.

"I'm here,"
she said.
"I'm always here for you."