Can I truly rest, or has my past caught up with me, I thought if I would give my life fully to God he would deliver me from this thorn that is in my flesh, from the demons of my past, but yet I live in torment everyday. Father, my God save me from myself, give me strength in Jesus name, I seek your face, don't hide from me !
The devil: you believe God loves you that he will answer you, your a fool Paul, hahaha you will never be free, you are mines.
Paul: get away from me!
The devil: oh how I love the smell of fear
Paul: Jesus save me, please I beg of you, please!
Jesus Christ: Paul I am here
Paul: why, why did you not answer the first time
Jesus Christ: Paul why do you doubt me, such little faith you have
Paul: why must I suffer, when will I be free from this thorn that is in my flesh
Jesus Christ: I to have suffered do you not remember when the son of man died on the cross, i to had a thorn, I wore a crown of thorn's
Paul: Jesus I thought accepting you would mean my problems would go away but it seems things got worse,why, tell me!
Jesus Christ: my love, be aware that we still live in a world, where bones will break, hearts will break, but I am always with you, have you truly submitted your life to me.
Paul: yes do you think I would be talking to you if I hadn't !
Jesus Christ: than submit to me your mind as well as your heart and I will give you rest
Paul: but the demons, my past
Jesus Christ: I will deliver you, draw near to me
Paul: but I thought I was
Jesus Christ: you've made things about religion instead of a relationship with me.
Paul: but I go to church I read the Bible I pray
Jesus Christ: that is good my love, but you are missing one thing
Paul: what is it lord
Jesus Christ: have you forgiven your enemy's have you forgiven your self, it is my blood that washes all sins away, the reason why you are suffering in your mind, is from the open door you have given the enemy from un forgiveness
Paul: that's not fair lord you knew what happen to me as a child, why would I ever forgive them
Jesus Christ: because I forgave you
Paul: get away from me I don't want to talk anymore.
Jesus Christ: I love you
Paul: just go
The devil: hahaha, you remember the pain your father caused you, do you remember when your mom left you with your uncle, was Jesus there than, than why would he be here now
Paul: shut up, just shut up, back away from me satan
The devil: give me your life and I can free you from your pain, I'll give you the desires of your heart, don't you want your parents to pay
Paul: no that is not the way, I can't
The devil: I am the way
Paul: you liar
Holy Spirit: pray
Paul: what is this, this feeling, I'm burning up inside, but yet I feel this comfort
Holy Spirit: pray
Paul: okay
Paul: father it is hard for me to forgive, I can't do this on my own, show me how to forgive, show me how to let Go!
Holy Spirit: read the eternal scriptures
Paul: yes my lord
Paul's Demons: nothing is working master, what shall we do
Devil: his soul is mines, we will try another way
Paul: lord I am sorry forgive me of my sins, I need help, I can't forgive like you, I don't know but I'll try, I open myself up to you, I give you my mind, just like I gave you my heart, I submit to your spirit lord in Jesus name.
The devil: this is not over this is just the beginning, I'll be back
Paul: God I believe you are with me
Holy Spirit: I love you
Paul: tears coming from my eyes I can't stop crying
Jesus Christ: you see my love I am with you, I love you always.
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A tormented mind
Horrorin this story you will hear about the trials and tribulation that Paul faces within his mind and heart, before reading this ask yourself, are you at peace 
