Everything is dirty. My backpack, my room, the world, the school. I wanna clean it but it's too dirty for me alone. But I can't ask anyone. Because no one wants to listen to my problems. It's not like they can fix them. I like my physical therapist but it's hard to talk to him. It's hard to talk to anyone. I wish I had the courage to ask for my mom to get me tested for ADHD. Idk. Ig I'm js tired of everything. I'm tired of making jokes. I'm tired of cheering people up. I'm tired of laughing. I'm tired of being called a colonizer (pls laugh as hard and long as you want), I'm tired of being called a Nazi, I'm tired of trying to not beat someone up, I'm tired of all the drama, I'm tired of being called a faggot in a non-friend/-funny way, I'm tired of being told being trans is a phase that everyone goes through, I'm tired of being called fatass, I'm tired of not being good at anything, I'm tired of having to say I love you because it makes me uncomfortable, I'm tired of giving people hugs because they also make me uncomfortable, I'm even tired of being tired. I hope I don't wake up tomorrow morning. Can you tell Leah, Sage, Ashley, Loyalty and Spencer I'll miss them and that I love them and tell my grandma I thank her for supporting me and trying to understand "the new age gays." Love you.
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Depression Journal
RandomThis is for my own mental health purposes and I refuse to get a therapist because they cost money. This probably isn't something you want to read if you don't like listening to people talk about their problems and mental health. But I think this can...
