Bruce pov
I finally had the gut to visit her today. The woman who showed me what happiness and pain was. Amara made me very happy the first time we accidentally slept together. She was very young and probably I wasn't supposed to take her to my bed, but the heart wants what it want.
I fell in love with Amara, it wasn't love at first sight cause the first time I saw her she was very sick. She was like walking skeleton, but her beauty could still be seen. But at that time, I didn't pay much attention to her.
But when she started living with Jared and Allysa, and I saw her many times with her beauty and her slightly curved body, wearing short dresses and shorts all the time. I found myself not looking away, she drove me crazy without knowing.
When I started taking her to school and she stayed too close with me in the car, her scent drove me insane. I started loosing my sleep just thinking of her and that's when I knew that I had it badly.
So, that one time when she came to my room and we suddenly started to make out and had sex was the happiest day of my life. As time goes by, I thought that what we had is serious and maybe we should take it to the next level, I was really serious about her.
But then, the shocking truth came out. All those short dresses, all those expensive perfumes that I loved so much, she was actually wearing them for Jared.
Her mother wanted her to be with Jared and not a regular man like me. She wanted her to live a luxurious life and not a normal life that I had in mind for her. As if that was not shocking enough, what shocked me more is that Amara herself was thinking that way too.
So, all the love we made, all the nights we spent chatting, all the gifts I bought for her thinking that we are going somewhere, were just a lie? She actually never loved me like I did. Pain struck my chest and I hated her for that.
But, who was I kidding? When someone is in love, no one or nothing can make him forget that love. And this is me today, after spending so many nights thinking of her, after convincing myself for months that it wasn't actually her fault. I finally got strength to visit her.
And when I saw her, it took all I have not to kiss the daylight out of her. But, something in me couldn't. I thought I would just see her and forget everything but I couldn't.
My wound was still too deep.
"Bruce" Jared called when I parked the car "where were you? I looked for you the whole afternoon. And you didn't pick up your phone too"
"Um- I..I um was running some errands for grandpa" I lied "do you need anything sir?"
"Sir? We are already past working hours" Jared said "can we have a talk?" He asked
"Sure" I said and we started walking towards the garden and then we sat down
We stayed in silent as we watch the stars.
"How is she?" Jared suddenly asked
"Huh?" I asked
"You went to visit her, right?" He asked again
"..." I had nothing to say. I only look down
"It's not a bad thing you know" Jared said "and right now, I'm not talking like your boss, I'm talking like your brother. So, tell me what's on your mind"
I started playing with my fingers nervously. You know, I'm not the person who likes interrogations so much.
"Yes, I went to see her" I said
Jared nodded "how is she?"
"Do you care?" He asked
"I don't. But if she is the woman that my brother loves, then I have no choice now do I?" He said with a smile
"Jared!" I called. My eyes sting with tears "since when? Since when did you know that I love her?" I asked
"Long time" Jared said "I saw how you looked at her, your eyes couldn't hide the love that you felt for her. She was just young and naive not to see it"
"So, why didn't you say anything? I mean, she was a minor"
"She was 17 not 12, so, she had her choices to make" Jared said
"And she chose you" I said sadly looking down
"Aw, are you still mad at me? I told you that I didn't sleep with her" Jared defended himself
"I know. And I'm not mad at you. I'm just mad at her mother who trained her mind that way" I said
"So, are you going to take her back?" Jared asked
"I don't know. I jus don't know what to feel towards her. Sometimes, I want to walk in that prison and tell her that I forgive her. But, what if she change again?"
"She won't. Amara is not that bad trust me. With her mother out of the picture, she can be a good woman"
"How do you know that?" I asked
"Because I literally live with her sister as my wife. She was scary but deep down she has a soft spot. I'm sure Amara is like that too"
"Yeah, you live with her sister who is not her sister. Allysa doesn't have that evil woman's blood.."
"We don't know that, cause that woman carried her in her womb and breast feed her. So, they had a connection somehow. But look at her now, she is the purest thing I know" Jared said with a big smile
"You really love her, don't you?" I asked
"So much. And that's why I'm saying, if what you feel for Amara is strong just like what I feel for Allysa, just go for it" he said patting my shoulder
"But, will you be okay though?" I asked
"I will. As long as you're happy bro" he said "I should go, Allysa is alone with the baby" he said standing up living me there in thoughts
Should I really go for it? But what if she hurt me again? I will never survive another blow.
Maybe, I should just go with the flow and let the time decide.
*****
Tbc
Bruce was in too deep for Amara but she hurt our poor guy.
Stay alert to see what will happen next. Will he forgive her??
