sunghoon's diary

First And Last

Kim sunoo.

That's the name of the boy who comes to our cafe everyday at 12:40 he's so mesmerizing, his soft black hair and fozy eyes attract everyone's attention His sweet bubbly personality and his beautiful smile makes everyone around him so happy. I sometimes find myself admiring his beautiful features, we share glances every now and then, he always shows me his sweet smile I think I'm slowly falling for him? But that's not possible I'm Park Sunghoon, isn't he the one who's suppose to fall for me why am I so attracted to him?

He hasn't come to our cafe yet this week. I miss him i want to see his smile and i want his presence back in our cafe, the cafe looks so dull without him sitting in his spot laughing at his phone screen. Have i mentioned how much i miss his smile? How can I miss a person so much, I've never had a proper conversation with him but i can't help but feel lonely without his presence at the cafe. I wonder if he's doing alright.

He finally came back after two weeks, he looks tired I hope he's doing alright, i have him a few snacks with his drink i think he likes mint chocolate no i think he really likes mint chocolate. He's been coming to the cafe almost daily again, seeing his beauty makes me feel joy inside. I get butterflies whenever I see him laugh or smile i can't contain my happiness hearing his voice it sounds just as sweet and cute as him. I found his socials and started following him, he followed back! Is this the start of something new? He posts song covers time to time, he's pretty and he can sing I think he's so perfect.

He came in the cafe again but this time he brought someone with him. I thought it was a friend but they were holding hands, is that his lover? but that isn't possible I've never seen him mention anything about him having a lover. His smile looks so much brighter when he's with him, that's not fair why does he look so happy with him.

He's been coming with his lover a lot lately I hate seeing them together, he looks so in love and i hate it. I hate that i don't like seeing him happy again why is he so happy with him. His entire face shines so bright when he's with him. I want to be happy for him but i can't i don't get it we've never even had a conversation before and yet... Why am I so attached to him. Fuck they're always together.

He kissed him. Why did he have to do that infront me why did i have to witness that, both of them look so happy i can't stand it. I want to get over him but the second i see that sweet loving smile of his, i fall right over again. Is this what a heartbreak feels like?