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13:07
Hyunjin
As seungmin told felix to stop what he was planning to do i felt a sudden wave of regret flooding over me but for seungmin it looked like he has to deal with this everyday. I regretted everything i said to him today and to be honest it made me feel bad for him as if all these harsh words that are used against him should be for somebody else. I will try everything to keep chans crusty musty dusty fingers of him same for his harsh words same for changbin it will be hard but im willing to give my everything. but what he said next made me freeze in my spot even seungmin looked frightened.
"Don't come closer or i'll jump" felix said being really serious
"Lixie you better not im comming closer whether you like it or not you will come to my sleepover alive" seungmin said with an unusual stern voice
"don't try me seungmin, you know that i would let my self fall in a split second you off all kind know what i've been through. i really wont hesitate to jump just because a sleepover" felix said almost sobbing
I couldn't handle this conversation anymore im sure they both didn't notice me walking closer to felix because felix only notice once i was infront of him.
" the fuck do you think you're doing? if you wanna push me off then gladly you and your weird ass friends are one of the reasons why im standing here" he said on the verge of crying
"thats not why im here because i most likely do not want to accused of murder, i'm here because you and seungmins conversation made me feel the need to drag you away from the edge" i said in the most serious but caring way
"sure you dickhead but i wont let go easy i might aswell just let myself drop right now it would be the perfect opportunity for me to end all my suffering and my horrible past" felix said crying like he wasn't ready to let go. by this time seungmin went to get jeongin to help trying to calm felix down. felix and i were so deep in our conversation that neither of us noticed seungmin and jeongin comming closer, i noticed seungmin trying to get my attention so i yanked felix towards seungmin.
"what the fuck you psycho why the hell did you push me towards seungmin?! are you suicidal aswell and wanted to fall first? for fucks sake why does nobody let me end my suffering they either wont let me end it or they make it worse! what does this fucking world want from me so badly that it makes me suffer for their own shit!" felix yelled out in anger which i understood, but as soon as felix yelled out his anger het went to burst in to tears in seungmins arms which followed by jeongin trying to calm down felix unstoppable rage and tears that were falling.
i felt really sorry for how i treated him since i didn't know anything he's been through. it only makes me wonder how i could have been such a jerk to this literal sunshine he really doesn't deserve anything me or my friends said to him. I need to find a way to apologize to him but it seems he won't let me close to him and asking seungmin to apologize for me would make me look bad.
"Felix i know we didnt get off a good start but please i would love to know more about you, i would want to be your friend and i understand you probably won't want to be my friend knowing what i have done to you. but please jusst consider it i will await for a answer even if its no. i will also try to stop chan and changbin from laying a single finger on you" i told felix feeling confident
" FUCK NO WE MOST CERTAINLY DID NOT GET OF A GOOD START AND NOW YOU SUDDENLY WANT TO KNOW MORE ABOUT ME? WANT TO BE MY FRIEND? YOU WILL WAIT FOR A ANSWER? WHY THE HELL DO YOU THINK I WOULD WANT TO BE YOUR FRIEND? JUST BECAUSE YOU SAVED ME?" Felix shouted in rage at me
"Look im sorry i know this isnt the right moment to apolize since you almost committed suicide but please just consider it" i tried saying calmly but sounded rather desperate
" fine i will consider it but dont push it you got me? if you decide to push it i will say no, either way give me sometime not just to think but also to think about if i should continue to live in hell. please understand it wont be easy for me to accept it since im quite distressed" felix tried to say calmly
"HELLO WERE STILL HERE YA KNOW TAKE THIS SHIT SOMEWHERE ELSE, I SWEAR THIS LOOKS LIKE SOME LOVEBIRDS REUNITE SHIT" jeongin said while giggling with seungmin
Felix and i looked at eachoter trying to contain our laughter about how dramatic this all was. we couldn't hold in our laughter anymore we burst out in laughter together and kinda forgot about what happened earlier it was cute knowing felix could get along so well with people. I dont know why but i have the urge to.... protect him? wait.. no no this cant be... Am i falling in love? am i going crazy? shit i actually am falling in love with him... lets hope this will end up good and that i dont get friend zoned to much
"uhmm? Earth to hyunjin?" "is he still alive" i heard seungmin asking felix. "i could literally care less seungmin" felix said jokingly. " oh umn sorry guys i guess i spaced out a little" "yeah we noticed jinnie" seungmin said sarcastically "Anyways hyunjin would you like to come to my sleepover? its this weekend! Felix is comming as well for jeongin"
"Sure i would love to maybe i'll bond with Felix and jeongin!" I said happily
"Well guys im gonna head home now its been pretty chaotic just now and i still need to set up things for the sleepover " Seungmin said " yeah same for me i was gonna skip anyways" i said jokingly. "Im gonna head out and skip as well i of course need to pack a but load of snacks" felix said laughing
"Well lets part ways then yeah?" Jeongin said. "Yep see ya'll later i guess" seungmin said calmly
As jeongin said that we left to do our own things i went home to pack some clothes, toothbrush/ toothpaste and a towel. once i was done packing i saw it was 4pm so i still had 3 hours left and felix would come at 6 so i figured it would be nice to also come around six so i could start bonding with him. i went to check if i had everything and i brought some little things for seungmin since we hadn't seen each other in a while i also brought some little games like truth or dare, uno and skribble. i then decided i was ready and went to seungmins house.
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Anyways guys as usual there will be another most likely within 2 days
Information:
word count: 1203 (without author note)
made: 4/3/2023
time consumed: 1 hour and 32 minutes
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"Am i really worth the while?" *~HYUNLIX~*
FanficFelix is a college student who is suicidal to himself his friends try to cheer him up but something is stopping him from being happy. Hyunjin is a college student who always scores full marks on assignments and is part of a popular group full of bu...
