Kumiyo's MinSung Collection

Silent Love

" I feel so strongly towards you Jisung, "

Minho squeezed his arms around Jisung and planted his head in his chest.

" Minho? "

Jisung was confused about Minho's sudden change in demeanor.

It seemed like Minho was emotional, not in the promiscuous way he had been in before. It seemed now like Minho was sentimental, or sad. Jisung couldn't really figure it out.

"  I know this means nothing to you, "

Jisung quickly pulled away from Minho's hold and looked at him with offense.

" What? What are you talking about?! I'm not unfeeling like that!"

Minho laughed at Jisung, fondly but it came off as condescending like he thought Jisung was being foolish. Because Minho did think that, he knew that Jisung didn't understand what he was trying to say.

[ For context, previously before this dialog, Lee Know and Han were making out because Han wanted to experiment with his sexuality. But things got too emotional on Lee Know's end because he actually has real romantic feelings toward Han that are not reciprocate. ]

" You don't understand what I mean. "

Minho let his hands fall to Jisung's sides, he continued speaking as his palms caressed Jisung's hip bones.

" Maybe it's better off that way. "

" What's going on with you all of a sudden? "

Jisung straightened his posture to get a good look at Minho's face. He was now straddling Minho.

Minho threw his head back and whined.

He probably didn't want to tell Jisung anything about how he felt, because Minho was certain that Jisung didn't reciprocate. But he had already gotten himself in trouble by letting this casual session get the best of his emotions.

" I didn't want this to end so soon, "

Minho looked down to avoid looking Jisung in the eyes.

" But I couldn't put my feelings for you aside. Romantic feelings..."

Jisung was caught off guard, his comforting demeanor soon fell as he started to slowly and subtly scoot off of Minho.

" Oh, I didn't know- "

Jisung removed himself completely and was now sitting on his knees in front of Minho. The sudden change in mood made Minho want to hide.

Minho curled up his knees and hugged them close to his chest.

" I'm not- "

Jisung tried to spit his words out concisely, but it was all getting jumbled up.

"I don't think I'm that way- I like girls only, I couldn't possibly feel the same way- "

Jisung stopped talking when he noticed Minho's eyes get glossy.

" I'm sorry. I probably shouldn't have agreed to kiss you if I didn't feel that way. "

Jisung felt guilty, even though Minho was older than him he felt as though he was taking the joy out of someone younger than him.

" No, no."

Minho began.

"I thought I could handle just helping you out. I didn't think I would take it this far. "

" Well at least it didn't go further in any other direction, am I right? "

Jisung tried lightening the mood by joking around, but it obviously wasn't the time. Which was why his little funny was returned with silence.

" I know you're trying to make things better, "

Minho quickly wiped away the stray tear that trickled down his cheek.

" But things are obviously over now. "

He got off of the bed and walked toward the door to his room, Jisung watching him move.

" So if you don't mind, I think you should leave. "

Minho held the door open, Jisung could feel the tension and got up to leave.

" Minho, You aren't angry with me...right? "

Minho looked longingly into Jisung's eyes. He wanted Jisung so badly, there was so much desire there.

But he could never have him, so there had to be boundaries set now. Because Minho's feelings were growing too strong.

They weren't sexual or childish anymore. They were deeply romantic and deeply affectionate.

Jisung's worried face made him even more desperate.

"  I'm not angry Jisung. But we're finished with this, so now It's time to leave. "

Minho's tone was cold and really depressing. So Jisung listened and didn't pry. He left, and Minho closed the door to his room.

A few minutes later Minho got a text from Chan.

CB\ Hey, did you and Jisung have a fight?
LK\ Why? What is wrong with him?
CB\ Well he came back to the dorms crying, he won't tell anyone what's wrong.
LK\ Oh. I didn't know that.
CB\ Obviously? Anyways I just thought since you guys were out together today that maybe something happened.
LK\ Nothing happened, nothing like a fight anyway.
CB\ Could you talk to him? He opens up more to you sometimes.
LK\ Thats probably not a good idea, he probably wants to be left alone don't you think?
CB\ Maybe. He will probably say something in the morning, right now he's cooped up in his room. Maybe he's just sleeping?
LK\ It is late. And he was crying you said. He probably tired himself out.
CB\ Yeah, you're probably right.
LK\ Yeah. probably.