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|Wednesday, 16:47|
My window is open and it's windy out, normally I'd get up and close it but right now I just can't be bothered. I'm just sitting completely still on my bed, I'm still in chock I guess. What can you expect really?
It's been two hours. Two hours since my mother stormed into my room in tears, screaming. She couldn't even talk normally for ten minutes. Two hours since I found out you were dead. I don't even know what to do now, how do I even function? Not at all apparently. I tried getting up, couldn't move. Hell, I tried to cry. I couldn't even do that. I'm just sitting here sending text messages to a dead person, who does that? I guess it's a matter of habit?

|Wednesday, 17:02|
I'm getting cold, I don't know if it's the wind or just the fact that you're no longer here.

|Wednesday, 17:08|
I closed the window, It's not the wind.

|Wednesday, 23:32|
I think the chock has passed now??
I'm currently laying on the floor crying my eyes out. It hurts so much. Please don't leave me.

|Thursday, 01:53|
I miss you. I miss you so so much.
I love you so so much.
I'm so so lonely.
Without you I'm so weak.

|Thursday, 03:20|
You always helped me when I was feeling down, I know you wouldn't want me to cry now, but I kind of can't stop it. You taught me to believe in myself and you've showed me that I am beautiful. I have you to thank for my life and I will continue to live it with you in my heart. I have to delete this number now because your mother is receiving these messages and she really doesn't need my grief on top of her own. I'll love you forever and I will never forget you. Rest in peace my hero <3

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