Life matters when you have someone

Chapter 5

Point of View Mina:

I know they have left and I'm stuck here being something I do not want to be.

I return to my seat and the members look at me, but I look at the stage and see someone performing.

I start to be anxious, and start to feel the cuts on my arm, I know that they will never fade, but it is who I am.

I look at the members and they can see that I'm feeling my arm, and they know that when I do that, I could get a panic attack.

I see that they are calling on someone that has won.

But I have no clue who.

The members stand up.

I look at them and they leave me alone on the table, I look down and think what I have done with my life.

I feel that someone is looking at me, I look and it is Solar from Mamamoo, she is sitting with her members on the table across find mine, and she is saying something but I have no clue what.

I can see that she gets up and kneel in front of me, and cleans a tear from my cheek, she smiles a little, and grabs my hand and pulls me up and takes me to the stage were the members are.

So, we won.

I stand in the back.

"Mina would you like to say something", The MC says.

I see the members have make way for me, I go to the mic and say no.

"Mina, are you feeling ok", The MC says again.

I can barely hear him.

"I'm good is just that I'm tired", I say.

I can barely hear what he is saying.

I look at Solar and she looks worry.

I mouth help please.

She nods, I think that she understood, because she says something to her members, and they nod.

We all go back to our seat in our table.

Solar comes my way and kneels in front of me, and gives me a little smile, I smile back and the members tell something but I have no clue what.

Solar pulls my arm gently to stand up.

I stand up and follow her.

We go back stage, I start to hyperventilate. Solar looks more worry.

She pulls me to sit down in a chair, that she found.

I sit down, and she kneels in front of me.

I close my eyes very tightly, and start to cry, my hands are tightly in a fist.

I feel something in my hand, I opened my eyes, and it is Solar and the rest of Mamamoo.

Solar says something, but I can barely hear her or see her, I might faint.

Wheein Point of View:

Solar told us something about Mina from Twice and she looks worry for her.

We all look for her and she is feeling her arm, like if she is tracing something.

When Solar help her go to the stage it was like she was not here but in other place.

When they got off the stage, the members did not even help Mina, or at least check if she is fine.

Solar went and took mina backstage, Twice members did not even care.

We all walk backstage, and found a worry Solar, and Mina is sitting on a chair looking lost like a lost puppy or kitten, or penguin.

I look at Mina and she is having a panic attack, but she looks very afraid.

I kneel beside Solar and tell her to let me lead.

I might have Panic attacks, and I told the members how to help me, and they do a great job, but not all the people are the same.

I put my hands on Mina's cheeks and turn her towards me, so she is looking at me. I start to caress her cheek she opens her eyes.

And when I look in her eyes the only think that I could see is pain, and sadness. And tears that look like diamonds.

"Mina what are three things that you see and hear", I say loud.

She looks around with her eyes, my hands still in her cheeks.

"You, chair, ta-ble", Mina says with a broken voice.

I nod happy.

"Three things that you hear", I say loud.

"Music, heart, thoughts", Mina says clearly.

I let go of her, she looks more relax. I stand up and tell the members that she needs to leave before she faints or worse have a panic attack in the award show.

They nod.

We look at Mina, and she looks broken.

"Mina do you want to go home", I say putting my hand in her shoulder.

She looks at me and shakes her head fast, almost afraid to go home.

"Home supposed to be happy, not strict and sad, angry, and always fights", Mina says still looking at me.

I look at the members.

And they nod.

"Mina, do you want to come with us", I say.

She nods.

She stands up, but she almost falls, Moonbyul catch her by the waist.

"Sorry, I feel dizzy", Mina says holding her head.

Moonbyul carries Mina bridal style, and we leave.

We are now in our dorm.

Mina is on the couch talking to her members on the phone and things are not going pretty, we can hear the yelling from her phone even if it's not on speaker.

Mina flinches each time they yell. Me and the members are in the kitchen, trying to make some dinner, while we also wait for Mina to finish talking.

We hear her say bye.

We enter the living room. And see Mina looking at her phone in the table.

"Mina", Hwasa says getting her attention.

Mina looks at her and smiles a little.

"Sorry they were just uhm you know worry", Mina says unsure on what to say.

We sit down around the table, and nod.

We are all eating but I could see that Mina keeps caressing her arm, does it hurt.

"Mina can I see your arms", I say to her extending my arm my grab her arm.

She gives me her arm.

I push the long sleeve away a little and the first thing that I see are scars.

I look at her and she is not looking at me.

I start to trace her scars; she flinch a little and looks at me.

"Why", Is the only thing that I could say.