lagos
ikeja city; 17th october 2022
who would have thought that waiting for an admission letter could be so nerve racking. It's been 2 month since i wrote the schorlarship entrance exam to one of the most prestigious university in Nigeria;Redemmers university my dream college where all the rich and wealthy kids attend and me i"m not rich just average middle class people. I'm sure you're wondering why a girl like me would want to go to a school like that well it is the school that will help me achieve my goal in becominig a biochemist like i've always dreamed as a little girl. My name Emilia Augustine a nineteen years old who sucks at relationship. Ever since i was little i've been compared with my sisters who are hot and beautiful don't get me wrong i won't say i'm ugly but compared to my sisters i don't stand a chance, i'm what you call a plain jane not intrested in makeup or beauty standards just love to be comfy and natural.
" Emilia, get down from that bed and go to the market and get me some bubble tea" my mum screamed at me. scrolling through my phone when i saw a message pop up on my screen from my emails , i read the context of the message and i burst out of my room screaming running towards my mum," mum mum i got in i got in oh yes oh yes!! " what's going on my sisters came out asking,apparently my screaming seems to have woken the whole neighborhood.
" Emilia can you tell us what got you so exiceted " my second sister victoria asked," better talk before i give you a spanking and it better be a good reason for all this ruckus" my first sister success said. i rolled my eyes and snarked at her comment ignoring it completely and turned to my mum and told her the big news." mum i got in , i passed the schorlarship exam to redemmers university" i screamed, before i could grasp to read the look on her face my mum grabbed me and swung me around showing how happy she is. she went to her bedroom took her keys and drove us down to my favourite resturant Mr Biggs and asked me to order whatever i wanted ,you could say that day is the happiest day of my life.
It did'nt take long for the news to spread round my neightborhood everywhere i went i got congratulatory messages and greetings i was grinning from ear to ear, i figured i had to say goodbye to my friends and to my highschool crush Ahmed Shittu and probably tell him how i feel. Yes i have'nt told my crush how i feel and i may probably never see him again that's why i decided to see him.
The day to finally meet my friends came, i put on my favourite black t-shirt with a baggy jeans and wore my sneakers and tied my hair up in a ponytail,cause i'm the kind of girl that fancy comfortable over fashion and all, i've always wondered how i'll look with makeup and wearing those tights clothes other girls wear but i'm not other girls i'm me Emilia. i kissed my mum goodbye and took a taxi to shoprite the biggest mall in ikeja city. I got down from the taxi and saw a familiar figure it was Favour my best girl." hey bitch, how are you gosh how long has it been i've missed you like crazy and why could'nt you wear something sexy", oh no here we go again, back to my outfit,Favour is the kind of girl any guy would want at first glance, she's busty and fair in complextion and she wears dresses that attracts boys and sometimes i don't like it but she's not ready to change and i'm not forcing her. " umm, i said completely ignoring the comment on my out fit,where is everyone i asked". Before she could reply i heard another familar voice it was my other bestie jessica with a few of my friends and in between the crowds i saw my crush Ahmed Shittu standing with one hand in his pocket and wearing a white t-shirt with shorts he looked so handsome i could"nt stop day dreaming about him that i did'nt see him walking up to me," Hi Emilia,how are you doing,Emilia! Emilia! " huh oh sorry umm where's Shittu!" i asked looking at Favour who was standing in front of me," girllll he left you were so zoned out he thought he was talking with a stone oh my gosh you are so silly why did"nt you say something" Can you please stop i said sulking and left Favour laughing like a manaic and went into the mall, i was so embarrased at myself cause i knew favour was right i acted like a total fool now shittu is going to think i'm a weirdo, stupid! stupid! i kept saying to myself. we had so much fun,watched movies,ate food and i finally told them about my admission and how i was leaving in the next 3days, as expected my bestie cried even if she tried to do much but won't lie i'll miss her like crazy. I whispered to myself Emilia you have to do this tell him now or never, so i mustered the courage in me and walked up to him, my hands were shaking and sweating i felt sick in my stomach and wanted time to move so fast as i got closer to where he was i called him with a soft voice " umm shittu can i talk to you for a minute" sure
" so there's something i need to tell i said with so much fear in my voice cause deep down i knew the answer but just did'nt want to admit or acknowledge it. i really like you no i mean i've loved you for a long time and its so crazy that i daydream about us togethere i know it sounds crazy but i'll be leaving and i really want to make things between us work"..... sigh , there i said it all what could go wrong, the silence after i finished my confession was killing me inside so much that the tension between us rose and it all felt awkward, i felt i could die cause it felt like time stopped for a minute at that point i wished for the ground to swallow me up and i heard a laugh at first i was confused then he said something i could never forget in my life.
" Oh Emilia i appreciate you like me and have a crush on me but i can never date a girl like you, Oh Fuckkkk!!! did you think i'll ever like a girl like you who the fuck do you think you are to think i would actually want you as my gf", as i heard those words i really wanted the ground to open up and swallow me i told myself i would'nt cry cause i had it coming but i could not help it tears came down my cheeks as i stared at him and all i could say from my mouth was to beg, i hated myself cause i knew the answer but i begged for him to date me.
" Wtf is wrong with you!! don't you get it i don't like you at all, you are not attractive,you are just a boring bland girl and you have the guts to beg me how low can you get! you disgust me" the looks in his eyes said it all that he never saw me as a girl all i knew i raised my hands and slapped him and left did'nt say goodbye to my friends or anybody i just went home crying. I didn't eat anything,couldn't tell my mum what had happened just wanted to leave that city , i swore to myself not to have anything with any guy the way my heart was broke by my crush, i hated him so much and i hated myself that i had to beg for a guy to date me how cheap can i get i thought within myself.
