Losing them

CHAPTER 1

 I couldn't stop my tears from falling like rain.

My heart is fucking hurt and feels shredded into pieces .

The pain "they" give is unbeatable . The sensation of being left out, betrayed, and disloyal.

2.30 a.m ; Softly expressing my frustration with crystal tears without waking up my roommate. I've been crying uncontrollably for about two weeks. 2 weeks, then why is it hell like 2 months? ......................................................................................................................

 "Hello my name is  ,  Anne . Nice to meet you all" Introduced myself to my virtual classmates.

Because of the epidemic era, our diploma has been virtual for two semesters. However , thanks to my ESTJ personality and social abilities, I was able to catch up with Diane, my first ever best friend in college life .  We are close since semester 1 .

 Diane and I  have opposing personalities. She's a morning person, and I'm an owl at night, so if I woke up late for class , she'd phone me as many times as she could. Diane like being passive, but I enjoy being the leader. So, whenever there was a group assignment, I volunteered myself as the leader and asked her to perform this and that. Although we are close, I always reject her work if it does not meet my standards and ask her to submit it to me three days before the deadline. Diane has earned my complete respect by putting up with my grouchy, inconsiderate, and egotistical behaviour.

     "Everyone open up the camera and please introduce yourself properly ." Requested Ms Tania .

    "Em , test test . Hi everyone ! My name is Amysha . You guys can call me Amy "   

   "Goodness gracious. She is very beautiful" my first thought upon seeing Amy .

Amy has become well-known in our class groupchat after she revealed her face. She has an oval, attractive face with curly eyelashes .The angle of her laptop camera and the camera's lens itself is sharp and clear which makes her looks glow . She is very friendly and nice in our chat group , which is one of her charms. Another thing I will never experience in this life is being the centre of attention because of beauty . She's incredibly fortunate but I believe I'll never be close to people like her .  

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As I've already mentioned, I'm an owl and almost missed class. Our physics professor, Mr. Darren, divided us into assignment groups and instructed us to do research our own projects . Charlie is a member of my team. Charlie called, but I did not answer the phone. As soon as I woke up, I whatsapp Charlie immediately and It's about an hour late:

"Hey Charlie , Im very sorry for waking up late . Lets start discuss about our project"

after 5 minutes she's not replay , I call her . I spam her as I was desperate and afraid she will be sulking to be my teammate . 

Since we are not close to each other , I believe each of us feels annoyed and our first impression  is not good . Later than that , she reply ;

"Hey! Please dont spam , Im taking shower" 

"Huh ? What an arrogant girl !" I was speechless with her attitude . 

"Let's leave this bitch behind after finish the project . I'll never want to hang out with her. " I promised myself 

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Guess what, everyone ..

 My own expectations killed me. Charlie and I have become good friends as a result of the success of our project assignment. We're good friends, but not particularly close. Amy, the person I never thought would be close to me, is now one of my best friends. We always chat to each other.  I'm glad my online studying is yielding positive benefits for me . I gain new circle which are Diane, Amy, and Charlie . Aside from that, I'm worried about how we'll meet next semester. In person, are I'm able to socialise well? Am I good enough to be friend with them ?