Thrill Ride (The Journey Of Writers)

Thrill Ride 5

Constant hiatus would be the perfect description of my journey as a writer these past few months, year rather. The phone I was using broke, the writer's block, repeatedly unpublishing the books, and the academics getting in the way. I started officially writing back in 2021. My first published book would be about a girl with fainting disorder but before I could even finish it, I deleted my account and made a new one which is the current.

I started again, a new story and all that. November 2021 would be the month to mark my anniversary as a writer. I was continously writing until April 2022, when my phone broke. I was kept, not knowing ano na ba ang nangyayari sa sinusulat ko. I asked my cousin to unpub the books for me until I am back. November 2022, a year later, I was able to get me a new gadget to continue my writing.

I was so discouraged by the fact na lagi nalang akong aalis and then babalik. Though I know naman na hindi ko 'yon sinasadya, I still feel the shame of having to continue it after unpublishing the book I wrote. I was worried na baka galit sila sa akin, na ayaw na nila sa akin. Napanghinaan ako, and I stopped. Literally stopped. January 2023, at 12 AM, I started again. I published IWTP's Prolusory and still continuing to become the writer I once dreamed of until today.

I learned my lesson well. Hindi dahilan ang kahit na ano pang circumstances na dadaan sa buhay mo to stop being what you really want to be. There should not be any reason out there to halt you. Hindi sa lahat ng oras ay productive tayo, so when you feel like it, you have to do it. Set yourself the compatible mindsets and musics and schedules and vibes. Whatever that makes you happy and at rest. Hindi mo kailangang laging pilitin ang sarili mo. Never set yourself high standards. Do not challenge yourself. Kung nagmamadali ka at napipilitan, ang resulta dito ang tunay na magdi-discourage sa'yo. Learn to calm yourself, be happy with what you're doing, and never ever ever envy someone you see higher than you. Next thing you know, pantay na kayo.

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