Diary of a Secret Admirer

I finally decided to write....

Dear R,

I wasn't really thinking of writing about you as you might find this account, but the events of yesterday had given me the reason to do so.

You see, I had always been secretive of how I feel for you, for I don't want you to ever know it, but I almost couldn't help but feel hurt yesterday when I saw your gentle smile while one of our friends was teasing you. You were drawing two people: a boy who resembled you and a girl who resembled the girl you liked. It was cute. Romantic, even.

What hurt was that the girl wasn't me.

I smiled and laughed and teased you with them but my heart was breaking deep inside.

I wanted it to be me.

But this is something I will never tell anybody.

I will cry and get hurt because of you but only I will know.

I love you, R.

But this will be my secret.