oh my god I just had several meetings for my new movie several interviews i did for a movie i shot in 2013 2 years ago all they needed was me to do a bunch of lines and have an act here and there and boom straight for the 2015 box office i mean it wont do better than fast and furious 7 but hey its 2015 people and where do i end up on goddamn facebook all over the have you seen eric johnson in his new film oh yeah that one where he plays as a man of some sort i mean i just finished filming a movie based on the video game doom and when is it coming out 2016 i mean i enjoy the nice things in life i love vodka and all that i love driving my car and that but i dont know why but i hate staring in movies i mean when i was younger sure but not now i mean i am 24 years old but something about al this dosent seem right i just feel like money isnt everything its a sense of hate and despise the fact im making more money than i did 7 years ago well thats when i started acting im losing my goddamn mind just listining to the goddamn directors of the films like come on im just doing what i can do correct i mean im in too deep sometimes it all feels like its all a bad dream that i cant wake up i cant stand the paperazzi and they always go "can we get an autograph mr johnson" like just call me by my goddamn name sometimes i feel like faking my death like i cant even get a girlfriend because they will use me for my money and just walk away into the life of goddamn fame like my therapist tells me to let it all out but when i do he says "youre overreacting people love your movies i mean i love your films aswell as the others" huh yeah right like im overreacting youre not the one who was to sit through hours of interviews just to get a fake laugh out of everyone and then be critisized on the internet just for saying that im not happy i just hate my life im screwed i have so much and yet it feels like nothing no love no self control no happiness and happiness is what you need in life its everything to a man i try to work out but then for my next role i have to lose weight of put weight on or work out for hours a day just to get the part i didnt want i mean i like the red carpet but the times i was nominated for an Oscar and lost it to a phony actor who is to big for his boots kisses his award then smiles at me like his a big man but i know deep down i can win one but what is it just piece of plastic crap and walk out and then on the billboard WLK the all new fragrance from eric johnson or love yourself song from the major motion picture lotus flower coming 2014 staring eric johnson like what the hell is going on with people now days but then i just go home or my trailer for the film im shooting like 2 hours of make up seriously just why like why am i doing this why do i hate myself why am i ALIVE
