Nothing?

(dis)Apperance

I didn't know what was happening. People kept asking me questions, if I was okay, what was wrong, what was wrong with me. 

I didn't know.  I was quivering and I couldnt breath, it was too much.   What I did know is that I wanted silence, nothing, peace and quiet.  So I ran, but it wasn't enough, I could still hear everything, I couldn't do it anymore.

I left instead.  All until I was in the middle of nowhere. 

Finally, it was okay, I was fine, I could breathe.  I wandered around, all the guilt I had felt beforehand leaving me, as I relaxed.  I went to sit down on the edge of a cliff, a cool breeze rushing through the air.  I closed my eyes, and I just forgot about the entire world.

But, when I opened my eyes, I wasn't there anymore...

...a graveyard. That's where I was. I felt a little out of place, dissociated. Like nothing was around me, I felt nothing. It was..nice. Knowing i didn't have to deal with anything. I was actually okay for a while.

Wandering through the graveyard it felt like something was watching me. I don't know why, I don't know where. I just felt it. But, when I looked around there was nothing. What was happening? 

"Hello?" I yelled.

"If someones here, tell me!". 

 Silence. Nothing. Wait. That's what was happening.  Absolutely nothing.  Right then and there I realized the last thing i had wanted had happened to me.  

Whatever was watching me was a living human being. I just couldn't see them since I wasn't THERE. I was nothing. I was dead, gone. 

Nothing.