blue eyes hurt

i just don't fully understand?

I'm not up set in kno way shape or form I just don't understand really.  someone who ig you deem someone you wen talking gat same interests,  or do really wander if they just tryna relate. when I saw with my eyes what I saw I says wait. then everything starts going silent, and just like the scene from amazing spiderman  heart was fallin and didn't catch it in time.

really it shattered across me inside in a ripple affect. admittedly was I in thought searching for the answers to this puzzle for a second yes I was. But then I realized Goku mode, Goku mode , just something I tell my self so I don't over re act I guess.

But making some sense out of all of it from then up until now and going thru the box of memories.  I just utter these. words I don't understand. and if the logic of it made sense .

But also and tiny small part of me ask myself does said person kno I like a good mystery in a person? if so how? so many mf questions with un answered logics for them currently but I believe will be answered in due time.

But ig this the price to look at if u elevate ur spiritual self to student all the way to listener. cuz apparent rules can't take everybody with u but bet u they will see were they could have been ppl choose to sack eat instead of looking at tha rea deal . and thats 💯 proof.

ig in the eyes of this person I jus randomly became they ex friend ngl wouldn't be the first time a mf don jumped out my life like a hood put off.  ig this show mf real colors toward a real mf. noice remember wen I get wealthy and up there stand 10 toes on tha ya dig cuz ima stay 10 toes on mine and leav ye asss behind.

Just kno this I still wanna see u plant those beautiful roses just not in my garden. ya lost that right so u either leave or earn ya spot back.

even if was just a friendship you wanna kno the honest FUCKING TRUTH I didn't mind that at all I liked being friends with you  maybe this just another season changing thing were you gotta swim up stream or some were  else bc the friendship that was formed with u felt like bigtime rush.

But this moment right here just feels like a balloon u only fill it up do far until it says 💥POP!! AND ig im eddy brock and the person whom is 5'2 is venom and u might as well be the person that said films extra.

Swear I get it life is difficult but wete did this come from this circumstance of my relationships wise why was it given to me like this in this way.  Not Complaining just like The tile I just don't understand!!! 

Wish growing up i was shown a better way to do this thing called life instead being yelled at for doing it wrong wen I wasn't shown how it works in the first place . "May not say alot but I notice alot"- jagwirestudio.

shit if I'm being honest at times I'm too much in my head , not bc I wanna be but ik I have soo much to say but I'm just not sure if whst i say will be perceived right.  or if I will have time to say it all .

Also we adults if u like me or have any issue wit me come talk to me we can conversate about it. don't go thru 4 ppl to tell me what u want to say. bc thats says akot about who u are in this regard a lil bit at least.