Today Alfie and I went for another ultrasound and it was so nice to go with him "wow she is growing so fast" Alfie said as we left the hospital "that's acc how it's meant to be" I said " I have an idea let's go baby shopping " Alfie said "no I've already done that" I said entering the car "it won't hurt if she has a lot of things" Alfie said, I could not say no, not because he was her father but his eyes were so pretty and no one says no to pretty eyes "okay, just two outfits" I said, Alfie took me to 'cuddles and dummy' how about this, he said showing me a base ball cap "it's a girl" I said "so, she can like baseball, and she will wear it on her first game" Alfie said "no.... my princess is not doing baseball" I said "how about this... it's cute" Alfie said pointing to a red polka dotted shirt with a bow and black leggings and mini mouse over all and pink doggies "okay that's nice" I admitted "I can be a nice dad...... what do you think" he said coming closer I could feel his breath on me, he was about to kiss me then I turned away "yes you can" I said "picking a stuffed teddy" lovely "I said throwing at him,
" can't we at least act like people that are going to have a baby in two months "Alfie asked behind me
" three months acc...... and because you are probably having a thing with a different girl today "I said" you don't even know me "Alfie said" that's the problem I don't know you " said almost immediately and walked away, he paid for the clothes and joined me in the car, the drive was silent, then he pulled over" sorry, I spoilt the day, your day " he said, I didn't exactly know what to tell him" what if you get to know me better, "Alfie said" say something "he said" it's not that easy, you know that " I said" at least try " he said" I love you so much, but I can't show it cause I can't take a heart break " told him" that's because your proud, you don't want to act weak " Alfie said" I'm not proud " I said hitting him, he held my hands" be careful, my daughter is in there " Alfie said" I love you "he said, and I turned red instantly, he kissed my cheek and continued
