Dreamer (One Direction Fan-Fiction)

Chapter Twenty - Changing is Hard.

Zayn's P.o.v.

    I hugged my mum tears streaming down my face. I held her tight feeling rage and disapointment radiating from her. I looked in the mirror across the room her eyes where closed as she embraced me tightly... what was she thinking. 

"Mum.... I'm so sorry....." I whispered leaning against her more for support. I looked across the room with blurry teared eyes looking right at my frowning sisters. I shook my head in my own disapointment. I should have never went to that party.... I was in a rage.... I was unstable. 

" Everybody makes mistakes Zayn..." she whispered holding back tears of her own. 

I was never like this, Never violent? But all of a sudden I had become someone that when I looked in the mirror I didn't even recognize. I had fallen long and hard for Emmy, and I guess I thought by treating her badly that she would grow to love me. Who wouldn't love her though.... she was gentle, sweet, beautiful and just all around a nice person? How could I have been such so horrible to her? I was now coming back into my family after three weeks of being away from them. I'm lucky they had dropped the charges or I would have been in jail a lot longer than the short time I was there. 

" I messed up so bad mum.... I don't think I should go to that X factor audition..." I whispered pulling away from her hug and walking into the living room area. 

" Zayn, what are you talking about....This would be perfect for you! It's time to start something new!"  My mum said following me. 

" Mum.... I don't know..." i whispered grabbing a water out of the fridge. 

" ZAYN you have to go!!" one of my little sisters said with excitment. 

I looked at her, and finally realized how badly I had inpacted the family. They looked up to me....How could I have gone so far for Emmy. I thought about what she was probably doing right now. She was probably with Harry....Her best friend, The guy who actually deserved to have her. 

" C'mon Zayn.... Where all going..." My mum said dragging the already packed suitcases down the stairs. 

" It's a new beginning for you." She whispered. 

I looked into her eyes, Singing had always been my dream that no one had known about. It was a secret around the family. 

"When did you pack? " I asked trying to change the subject. 

" I've had these bags packed for three weeks Zayn.... You need to do this.... for you." She said placing a hand on my shoulder. 

I looked at her for a moment before I started to nod. 

She was right.... This was my time.... Time for a change. 

I couldn' be that boy who tried to act cool and try to prove to people I was something that I'm not. 

It was time to be Zayn Malik for once.

--Next Day--

Standing in line with my mum was probably one of the most terrifying things I had ever done. I had went from acting like a bad boy with major confidence to resembling a baby panda in a matter of two weeks. Jail was scary...and I'm never going back. I examined the long line of people and smiled when I came up to the person who gave me my audition number. 

" Thank you" I whispered as my mum and I walked away toward the actual building itself. 

I took a deep breath before mum put both of her arms on my shoulders.

" I know you can do this Zayn, You have a beautiful voice..." She whispered with the tears slightly forming in the corner of her eye.

I nodded with a slight smile before I heard the familiar laugh coming from a few people ahead. I closed my eyes and shook my head. She wasn't here, there was no way. I re-opened my eyes and smiled at my mum before we walked up behind a group of people. There where about five people all crowded around the boy with the curly hair who was standing behind a girl with long curls. I shook my head and recognized the figure stading in front of me. I felt the blood drain from my face as her sister and Niall turned around chatting. I blinked a few times as we walked to our place right behind them in line.

Jaylee made eye contact with me and completely stopped what she had been saying to Niall.

" Zayn is everything alright?" My mum asked.

I turned her away from the group who turned around to look in my direction. I felt my face flush.

" Just some people from school....." I whispered sofly and a look of dread came across her face also.

I turned around meeting eyes with her. Her brown eyes that where usually beautiful and bright looked dark and terrified as she made contact with mine. She ran her hand through her hair nervously as she looked over at Harry who leaned closer toward he as he whispered something.

Harry glared in my direction and I just looked away, I could tell how much Harry liked Emmy. It almost sickened me that he had a 100% better chance with her than I did. I nodded at him and he nodded back.

" Zayn what are you doing here?" Jaylee asked bluntly looking at me and Niall and Harry's mum turned away from me.

" I-I'm audtioning..." I said with a smile.

Emmy gave me a slight smile and I felt my heart skip a beat. I looked at her for a few moments before looking back toward the ground.

" I didn't know you sang?" Emmy said trying to be nice.

" He always has..... I told him this would be a nice beginning to a fresh start." My mum blurted out patting my back.

I looked back up at Emmy who smiled then turned back to Harry.

They might have been expecting a remark, or me trying to be a jerk....But I wasn't going to let that happen. People can change.... and now... I'm one of them.