if you would come to visit me with all your missed apologies, you may find me still left in benches after you made me believe about sunsets as our beginning when it all ended as it should be. lonely. painful. tragic. heartbreaking to knew all along you want to end with someone else instead. if you would ask me where was i now after you left us...i was there mostly. not intentionally. but where else should i go when i always suited to find comfort in aching.
probably because even i was left in remembering or in hurting, i smile in bitterness the fact that in there, you made me feel loved and the worthiest. at least in days that i feel a little less of myself, i have felt enough in your arms somehow. but only for me to realize that it was the only thing you could offer to me. all the least because i was just too naive to settle in your embrace to somewhere i am belong. as to where i am loved more and yet all this time, all i have was a second place.
so, if you would come back to me with your missed apologies then i would tell you mine too. if i have made you stayed in my love unwillingly then i'm sorry... i'm sorry if i was just wanting to feel belong and you just can't. but to tell you, i hardly accepted that i was only a chance you will never take because your heart already had a place to stay. how tragically it is for me when all i want is to be loved the way how i did.
and yet i always find myself as someone who never had a home to at least rest all these aching.
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SolenneDream.
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Some Memories Hurt the Same
Poetryfor you if memories keep coming back inside your head at 2am, most nights and no more pain to feel anymore...but for me, it hurts the same way just like before.
