Unbelievable || Matt Sturniolo

Prologue

    As an eighteen year old girl, you would expect Jane to have experienced some type of love by now, and you're right, but it was never what you should have wanted to have as your first taste of love.

    At the ripe age of fifteen, Jane experienced her first love. Even though she was quite young, like every other teenager, you think your first love is your soulmate. That's exactly what Jane had thought. They did everything together; went to school dances as each other's dates, went to the movies, shared every piece of information with each other, anything you can name they most likely did.

    They spent all their time together, until one day, everything had changed. Her boyfriend, Ben, had really bad family problems. He was an older brother of two with one little sister. His parents are divorced and his dad had to live with one of his friends while Ben's mother kept the house. His mother is very abusive, and would always try to find a way to get Ben into trouble so she could take him away from Jane.

    One day, Ben's mother found him smoking. She went through all of his social media and texts thinking that Jane had influenced him to smoke. Even though she couldn't find any proof that Jane was the issue, she deleted Ben's socials, took away his devices for the rest of the school year, and she didn't allow Ben to go see Jane. Meaning Jane and Ben had almost no way of communicating with each other, but Ben was so committed into the relationship at the time that he was willing to try and sneak out of the house to go see Jane.

    This whole thing lasted for about three months until school finally started up again. He got his devices back, but something felt really off to Jane. They would see each other at school occasionally, but they had no classes with each other that school year because Ben was in all the honors classes while Jane was in the average classes. Whenever he got home he would work and then call his friends to play games for the rest of the night. He would call Jane for about an hour after his friends go to sleep until he wanted to go to sleep himself.

    It was easy for Jane to open up to Ben about how this is making her feel, but Ben would never say anything back or acknowledge her feelings. As time went on, their relationship just started to deteriorate more and more, and unfortunately it was out of Jane's control.

    One night, they had a serious talk about their relationship. Jane was crying to Ben about how he was really making her feel and it finally had made him budge. "I really only talked to you when I was bored," Ben confessed. "I wasn't even ready for our relationship in the first place." These words made Jane shatter into pieces. She had just found out that Ben, who Jane thought was her soulmate, never truly wanted her in the first place. After being together for over a year, she now found out that Ben didn't like her anymore.

    Their relationship officially ended later that night.

    After Jane experienced what she did, she hasn't been able to look at loving another the same way. She's scared somebody may offer her the same thing Ben did but will leave her after she opens up under any circumstance.

    It's been a year now since Ben had left her, and they are in their senior year of high school. Still no classes together, thankfully, and they haven't talked since the day of their breakup. There has been no contact in any way shape or form, no eye contact in the halls, no bumping into each other, no words said, nothing. But that doesn't change the fact that Jane continues to think about him every single day.

    She still has photos of him saved in her phone; FaceTime photos, photos of them together, pictures she took without Ben knowing, etc. She has every single one. Sometimes she looks back at their old texts, before everything had changed between them. She is too afraid to fully let go and if she will regret it. She believes that there are so many possibilities; what if he comes back? What if he falls for her again? What if he says I'm sorry? There are so many things she thinks can potentially happen, but deep down she knows they never will. She knows one day she will be able to move on, but for right now she's still scared to completely say goodbye.