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by justj4n1

by justj4n1

Y/N POV:

I woke up this morning and felt tired, maybe for an occasion like this most people my age would be excited but I am not. Today's the first day of high school, I'll be a sophomore this year. Throughout summer, I dreaded going back, because last year was really hard for me, I had just moved to New York from Georgia and everything was very different. I had a hard time fitting in with everyone else, and the people here aren't very nice. I tried to be positive about the move but when I got to my new school I had a rude awakening.

Last year was just flat out embarrassing. I tried making new friends, but it seemed like no one wanted to be my friend. So, when that failed, I thought I should just stay to myself and no one would bother me, but that didn't go well at all. I guess I was too quiet. The kids in my periods kept on making fun of the way I dressed, and my body. Over hearing there mean comments made me insecure and I ended up crying in the middle of class, and that's how I got a nickname. Crybaby.

I thought a lot this summer and I thought that maybe I should try and change that this year and become a new person, but I've decided not to because I recently joined Instagram and kids from last year found my account and were commenting hurtful things on my posts. So I left Instagram completely and faced the truth, no matter what I do, I will always be known as crybaby. I prayed this summer would never end but it looks like my prayers weren't heard, because today is going to be my worst nightmare, an extremely, very dreadful, nightmare.

The night before my mom took me clothes shopping, and I got a few outfits for school. Mom hoped that it would make me feel better about tomorrow, and it did at first, but now I just want to disappear. I know that you get no good out of running away from your problems, but it seemed like the best thing to do right now. So I asked my mom if I could stay home, and guess what! I CAN'T.

So I got out of bed and picked out one of my new outfits, then I headed to the bathroom. There I showered, did my hair, brushed my teeth, washed my face, and got dressed. I then put on my shoes, and headed down stairs. I spoke to my mom and started cooking breakfast. I made French toast, fried egg whites, and bacon. After I ate I talked to my mom about K-pop, I think she thinks I'm crazy because of how much I talk about it, but I'm glad that she'll listen. I told her about how I wanted to save up for the Tomorrow X Together Light stick and she asked me if I had really thought about how much money I've spent on K-pop merchandise. Which I guess come to think about that that is a lot of money, but its worth it K-pop makes me happy. I then said bye to my mom and left for school.

When I got to school I got my schedule and went to homeroom, there I saw Lizzy. I hate Lizzy. And if you met her I wouldn't have to explain why. But Lizzy is just a terrible person, she's the one who got everyone to call me cry baby. She made my Freshman year feel like jail, she was constantly making fun of me and embarrassed me anytime she got.

When I walked in her annoying snobby voice filled my ears. "OH HEY CRYBABY WHATS UP?" she said making me want to end my life right then and there "LIZZY HOW ABOUT YOU JUST SHUT UP FOR ONCE! YOU'RE SO IMMATURE, THAT WAS LAST YEAR LET IT GO" I snapped back. When I said that I was surprised normally I can never stand up for myself but something came over me, a feeling I've never felt so strongly before. Rage. After me saying that Lizzy scoffed, rolled her eyes, and then left me alone.

After homeroom I continued with my day and everything went fine, surprisingly, of course people still called me crybaby, but I for once, didn't care. And eventually, after awhile the name calling stopped, I guess all I needed to do all this time was not give them the satisfaction of seeing me upset. Then lunch came around, normally I would eat alone in the library, but from what I've seen today, I think its time for me not to be a pushover and put myself out there. I decided to sit at this table, there was this girl there and I asked if it was okay if I sat with her. She nodded yes, so I took a seat. By the end of lunch, I got to know the girl really well. Her name was Lilian, and she seemed very nice, she likes K-pop just like me, and we have a lot in common, and in conclusion, I made a new friend.

After school I went home and told my mom about my day. She said she was proud of me for standing up for myself, not letting peoples comments affect me, and especially for making a new friend. We then ate dinner. We had spaghetti and meatballs, my personal favorite. Then, I went upstairs and got ready for bed then watched the show I was binging on Netflix. After a few hours it was 1: 19 am, so I went to bed.

When I woke up this morning I felt energized, and excited for today! I got up immediately, picked out my outfit then headed to the bathroom. There I did the usual, I showered, Brushed my teeth and hair, washed my face, and changed. I put on my sneakers and went downstairs, I didn't eat breakfast this morning. I talked to mom about how excited I was for school, she seemed really happy for me, then I headed to school.

I went to homeroom and didn't hear "hey crybaby" at all, I heard the sweet sound of silence. When class started, our teacher announced we had a new student joining us. When he walked I was amazed. He was just so handsome, and masculine, and just everything you can imagine, and his name was...

YEAH LEAVING YOU GUYS ON A CLIFF HANGER BUT YOU CAN PROBABLY INFER WHO IT IS BUT CHAPTER 2 COMES OUT LATER TODAY SO I HOPED YOU ENJOYED PROBABLY NOT BC THIS IS MY FIRST TIME WRITING A FULL FF BY MYSELF BUT HOPEFULLY ITS NOT TOO BAD-

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