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Chapter 34

ENTIRELY WRONG

He looked at me with his usual expression. Iʼm having difficulties in figuring out what heʼs feeling when our eyes met.

It felt heavy.

Someone, please take me away from here.

Tumalikod ako at pinunasan ang mga nagbabadyang tumulo na luha mula sa aking mata. I couldnʼt just look at him as he do nothing and still stay calm with his friends.

I ran away as fast as I could. I want to escape this cruel reality. This is too much than I could take.

My whole body was trembling and both of my knees were getting shaky and weak. No! I canʼt just stop here yet.

I was so lost in my own stormy thoughts and I couldnʼt see where I was heading. My mind is feeling cloudy now and my vision is becoming more blurry ahead of time.

“Frankie...”

The sweet voice of my hope. I can hear her coming toward me.

“Lili?” Inangat ko ang tingin ko para maklarong si Liana nga ang narinig ko. Iʼm scared that this salvation is just an illusion. Hearing her voice at a time like this might only be part of my hallucinations.

I wiped away the tears all over my cheeks with my bare hands. “Iʼm here, Frankie.” I see her now.

My heart shatters slowly as her gentle arms both rested at my back, wrapping me with her warmth. “Take me away from here please...”

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“Did they hurt you?” tanong niya sa akin.

Umiling lamang ako. Kahit ang magsalita ay hindi na kinakaya ng natitirang lakas ko. Hindi ko alam kung paano ipapaliwanag sa kaniya lahat. Hindi ko alam kung sa paanong paraan ko maipapaliwanag ʼyung tindi ng sakit na dinudulot ng mga sinasabi nila tungkol sa akin.

I was lucky that they didnʼt hurt me physically... But they broke me to the core.

Nakatanaw lang ako sa bintana ng sasakyan. Liana was the one driving. Iʼm lying at the passenger seat with no power to sit properly.

“Donʼt believe what theyʼre saying.” she muttered. “You know you better than them.”

Sa sobrang bilis ng pangyayari hindi pa rin nagiging malinaw sa akin ang lahat. Ang tanging naalala ko lang ay ʼyung mga masasakit na mga salitang natanggap ko.

Nangilid ang luha ko at mabilis na kumawala sa mata ko. Ang bigat bigat sa pakiramdam. Sa sobrang bigat, hindi ko alam kung kaya ko pang iharap ang mukha ko sa kahit sino.

“Frankie, ʼwag kang umiyak please...” her voice turned soft as she tried to make me feel at ease.

“Iʼm so frustrated.” sambit ko. Hindi ko talaga maitatago sa kaniya ang kahit ano. “Sobra na kasi eh.”

How could he do this to me? Paano niya nagawang maging kalmado sa oras na sobra na akong dinudurog ng mga naririnig ko? Paano niya nagagawang hindi pansinin ang mga nangyayari sa paligid niya?