I took a deep breath and released it, looking deep into his eyes, broken to see the man I fell in love with was no longer there.
I wanted so badly to ask why, but deep down I knew the answer all along.
I was searching for answers, only to find myself asking questions.
I watched this happen, him slowly growing cold and him being obsessed with getting freedom by any means.
"Was there anything that I could have done to change this?" I whispered as tears ran down my cheeks. My eyes looked into his emotionless ones and I knew.
I looked down too ashamed to accept this truth.
"You know I hated watching the light in your eyes slowly burn out because of me." He said, his first words in hours.
My eyes snap back to his, shocked but still hurt. "We never learn, do we?" I laughed, still crying.
His face finally showed some emotion, hurt. "Why are you laughing?" His voice cracked.
I looked him dead in the eyes, "Eren Jaeger, I loved you. I would have done anything for you. Too bad we aren't meant to be, but we knew that all along didn't we? We knew what path you were going to choose and yet I chose to stay by your side."
My voice cracks, "Well this is where I leave. I can not love a man who can no longer love the ones he claims to care for. A man who is willing to kill people for some childhood dream. Trust me Eren, I want freedom as much as you do but this is not the way to get it. But I know nothing I say is going to change your mind, so there is no point in staying."
It hurt me to break this truth to him, but it needed to be said. I can no longer be hurt by someone I love and them not to notice all the pain they are causing.
I've let it slide for this long, it's finally time for me to leave.
He doesn't say anything, he just stares, emotionless.
"Then leave."
I grow still as I process those words. Those were the only words I needed to know everything I was thinking was right. He was no longer the man I loved, he is long gone.
Without another word I grabbed my coat and left, not bothering to look back at him.
Sometimes you just need to accept things and move on.
I have spent my whole life loving Eren Jaeger and I'll have to find a way to live the rest without him. Even though I wanted him to be in my book of life forever he was only in a chapter, but that chapter...will forever be my favorite.
