Don't let go

This can not be happening

Tw: sh so if your triggerd dont read
Erik never died and its Sunday at the palace
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Sun was shininig trew the window as the light spring wind blew on the curtiens as Prince Wilhelm of Sweden opened his eyes he got up and looked in  the mirror his body only in pants, thos damm scars, is all he saw whene looked at himself but he didn't realy know life without them he had struggled with sh for years but never told anyone Simon knew but it was a total axident but he was always soprtive but he was the only one who knew, erik didn't even know altho hes the most Inportant person in willes life he just could not let his brother down like that,he had tried many times but it always came out like erik im going out or erik i wont be home tomorrow he could never actully tell him,
Wille struggled with sh for years it all started when he was 13 royal life has always been tough and his parents where the literal worst and always been,then when he was 14 he got the first feeling for a boy and thats when he first cut he never told anyone his true feelings so nobody knew about simon, so wilhelm had two very big secrets he cut and he was gay not to mention he was dating a boy from a small town that would not be okay for the standards of the royal family but what he didn't know that was all aubot to change.
As he looked in the mirror he saw scars just scars on his arms and legs so many scars he hated him self for them but he couldt stop he had tried for simon but always relapsed efter just a little while but i was realy proud of him self he had been clean  for 4 months now,
After looking in the mirror for way too long he got dressed he always wore either a hoodie and sweatpants or jeans and a button up if he didn't have to wear a suit today was just a casual day at the palace nothing to do just hang out so he put on black sweatpants and simons purple hoodie witch he stole from him when suddently he heard his  phone beep

Babe♡: Wille did you steal my hoodie?
Wille: no
Babe♡: Wille?
Wille: okey yes i did okey but don't be mad
Babe♡: its fine im not mad just enjoy my werry old torn out hoodie
Wille: i love it
Babe♡: i love you
Wille: love you too

Willes pov.

I closed my phone and just smiled out of happiness I love that boy so much then Erik walked in walked in and took my out of my thoughts, What are you smiling about? Nothing is all I blurted out I completely froze quickly, okey sure Erik said with that mocking grin he so loved to use, so you don't mind if I look trough your phone then Erik asked still with that stupid grin don't do that I said way to quickly but I was screaming inside, ohhh little brother you got something your hiding Erik said as he tackled me but then he grabbed my wrists and i twitched out of pain it hurt so much, Wille why did that hurt? did you fall at Hillerska and hurt your wrists or something Erik said completely clueless, should I tell him now's the time right okey im gonna do it fock it, no Erik i didn't fall im sure you can figure it out, he just looked at me quotationally for a moment bet then you could almost see a light bulb turning on over his head, Wille take your hoddie of, i froze shit what have i done, Erik please is all i could get out i was in a totall shock and in the middle of it all i started crying Wille take it of or im going to do it for you, I took a deep breath then slowly took the hoodie of, Erik garbed my hands and slowly turned them and examde every scar then he put me in a soul crushing hug i felt kinda weird considering i was shirt less but there was to much going on so i accepted the hug and slowly tears ran down my cheeks we staid like that for a while but then he broke the silence Are there more? i just looked at him and slowly shook my head Okey go change into a shirt and shorts and we are gonna figure this out okey, okey i said so quietly so Erik beardly even heard then i walked to my dresser took out just some black shorts and a white tee then i slowly walked in the barroom and closed the door this can not be happening is all that went trough my head i looked in the mirror took a few deep breaths and changed then walked out and sat on my bed with my head down when erik was done looking he pointed at one on my knee that's a really bad one, i chuckled and said that is not one that's after you shoved me into the table when i was 8 oh sorry, is all he said we just staid in the silence for some time but then he said, they don't look new, how long have you benne clean?  i completely froze he isn't mad hes not being mean he actually cares how long I've been clean and that puts a instant smile on my face, 4 months, that's good im proud of you but i have to ask when did this start? i tought for a few moments before i said the first time was when i was 14, Erik looked shocked, that long you should have told me i should have figured it out, no you souldint i tried wherry well to hide them, but i should have then he hugged me and we staid like that for way longer then we should have.                                                                                                                    --------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

Willes pov.

me and Erik where just chilling and whatching a movie to relax a little i was really surprised how he reacted he was totally chill and wasn't even mad things where great then my mom walked in Wilhelm why didn't you post the pictures from hillerska like i asked i could not answer i actually didn't know why i did not post them but i just didnt but before i could answer Erik jumped into the conversation, Mom come on look how inisent he is look at him he is not dating anyone never has never loved a virgin just a poor kid he will post the pictures come on i saw my moms face she was very pale and just walked away now i just tough now's as good of a time as any so i simply just said, None of that is true,  and poor erik who  was drinking water spit it all over the floor, What your dating someone and your not a virgin he was so surprised i just laughed how long ago? i knew what he ment i just loved the look on his face, since you lost your virginity? i disided to mock him even more, look im 16 and live at a bording school and have been for a year and a half and its about little over a year since, A year and you didnt tell me! i just laught again how many times? i cant belive my brother is asking me this, you whant a honest answear or... now his face was even funnier yes i want the truth. okey,okey the truth is i have lost count at this point, erik jaw went to the floor and it was so funny i could not hold it in any longer Erik was so suprised i never even got to simon or even who i was dating he just talked about my sex life the rest of the night witch was realy wierd and embarrassing but so good at the same time just talking to my brother.                                                                                                                                                           -------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

Oh i love it and i hate it the same time, David Kushner

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