"Am i really worth the while?" *~HYUNLIX~*

'accidents happen..'

once you fall, just pick yourself up and pretend nothing happened -author

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Felix

i remember walking to the bathroom and grabbing my razor but the rest was just all blank i thought to myself. soon enough all the silence came to a end when i opened my eyes and saw millions of machines beeping over my head as soon as i opened my eyes a nurse came rushing to me to check if everything was okay but what she said next shocked me

*after explaining some weird shit*

"so you see..."

"you basically fainted due severe blood-loss and stress and it also occurs in our system that you haven't ate much these past few days which could lead to anorexia nervosa or in severe cases bulimia nervosa, so i would reccomend that you try eating atleast 3 meals a day" the nurse said

'i couldn't care less if i get anorexia nervosa or bulimia nervosa its what i've been trying to get the past few days or weeks i could say' i thought to myself

"it also came to our attention that you have several bruises and scars are you prehaps from a abusive family?" the nurse asked "no" i coldly said "hm okay then.. we also noticed that you have a lot of untreated wounds and deep cuts did you make them yourself?" she asked calmly "i guess there's no use in lying now so yes i did make them myself and a few were by.... others" i said trying to hold back tears. "i know this may be a lot to ask from you but would you tell me who those specific 'others' are ?" she asked with worry in her tone at that moment it felt like somebody opened a faucet and i began to cry my heart out "W..well uhm.. there's this group of boys outside my apartment and each morning when i go to school they drag me to some sketchy alley and start beating me and then they sometimes take me to a house of them and start to do 'sexual' stuff with my body but glady no intercourse" i told the nurse in basically one breath.

"oh also mr lee yongbok your friends are currently rushing to the hospital since they were at the scene please mr lee don't make them worry more about your health then they already do but im glad you have some good friends" she said as she left the room

a few minutes later seungmin,hyunjin and jeongin stormed in and immediately started crying as they rushed over to me and engulfed me in a hug."where's minho hyung?" "he's currently talking with the doctor".

"can you guys maybe leave for a few minutes i kinda wanna talk to hyunjin alone.." i carefully asked not wanting them to be upset. seungmin and jeongin gave eachoter a knowing look with a swift smirk attached to it "hmm of course we dont mind do we?" jeongin said and they left the room leaving me alone with hyunjin "you know felix.. you really had me worried back there i was scared you were gonna die" "you know hyunjin that was kinda the point but im glad you guys found me in time.. when did you even realize i was gone for too long? was it that obvious?" "well i thought you were taking really long in the bathroom so i went to check upstairs as it didnt feel right so i took minho with me.. and yeah.. then we found you laying unconscious on the bathroom floor, i was not able to function properly so minho hyung called 911..."hyunjin said almost breaking out in tears when recalling the moment. hyunjin and I looked in each others eyes and started leaning closer towards each other but and our lips were about to connect minho hyung entered the room

"Felix! are you alright? where are seungmin and jeongin? oh wait... i didn't disrupt anything did i? you guys seem to be in a... quite intimate position.." he asked carefully trying really hard to not sound suspicious. "i'm alright hyung.. i asked seungmin and jeongin to leave earlier because i wanted to talk to hyunjin but uhh now you're here so it doesn't matter hyunjin and i will talk later.."

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long awaited update sorry for my lack of posting i'm actually only posting this draft because one of my bff's asked for it!

Short chapter: 720 words (excluded author note)

time consumed: ?