Two Birds On a Wire

What's wrong Bokuto?

"Hey Akaashi have you ever thought about... ending it all?" Akaashi looks at him confused and honestly a little startled since that just came out of nowhere. He takes a deep sigh.

"Bokuto we've talked about this. You know that suicide isn't the answer." Before Akaashi could say anything Bokuto continued on.

"I mean I'm just saying, you know I've been trying," Bokuto says, voice cracking. "I've been trying to stay alive. For my mom, ...dad...friends...you. But I just don't think this life is worth living for." Akaashi looks at Bokuto's camera and sees his face.

What's going on? He usually isn't like this?

"Bokuto are you okay right now? Have you been drinking? Wanna talk about it?" Akaashi continuously asks questions trying to make sure he's okay. Bokuto chuckles, lightly, scaring Akaashi. "Seriously Bokuto what's going on? Did someone say something? Is it just one of those nights?"

Bokuto is quiet just staring at something, probably zoned out. Bokuto is listening to Akaashi but there's no point to fill Akaashi in on what's going on in his life when it'll be over soon.

"Akaashi you're so reassuring...and nice. Why? Why are you nice to me?..."Akaashi stays quiet letting Bokuto talk. "I remember once we went to a party, and these guys were making fun of me. When I was crying you led me to your car and you let vent to you about, my insecurities, how embarrassed I was, and how I've been planning to kill myself. Even when I was drunk you listened to me. You sympathized with me. I don't understand why you stuck with me for so long, obviously I'm too much to handle for any group of friends. Even for my own parents. But you know, it's nice having someone like you in my life, especially how I am."

What is he going on about?

"I believe everyone we meet isn't an accident. Every friend, every love. But you.. You deserve someone better. I don't deserve someone like you, someone as nice and patient, as you in my life. When I'm sad you want to help me, but why help someone that doesn't change? You've wasted your time, your life, with me, helping me through all the bad times...I wasted your time..."

"Now Bokuto-san, that is not true!" Akaashi yells through the phone causing Bokuto to jump slightly. "I had no problem helping you then, and I definitely have no problem helping you now!"

"NO!" Bokuto shouts back through the phone standing up from where he sat. "I won't let you comfort me right now when this is happening!" He's pacing back and forth from the extremely small room where he speaks.

"Bokuto-san, where are you at in your house? Where are your parents?" Akaashi asks, trying to make sure if Bokuto does do anything, there is someone there. But there isn't.

"T-their not h-here," Bokutp says in a shaky voice. "No one is here besides me.."

"Then why is your door locked?" Akaashi askes. Bokuto looks behind him and starts sobbing. This isn't like his regular episodes, so this is completely real. "Bokuto-san, what do you plan to do tonight?"

"I'm ending it all. Keiji..I can't do this anymore."

"No Bokuto-san listen to,-TALK to me! What happened?! Did someone say something mean?! Did your parents say something?!"

"It's not about my parents, it's about everyone! Everyone treats me as if I'm some helpless child! Everytime my emotions get the best of me they yell, hit, and they constantly JUDGE ME! You're the only person I talk to because at least you listen, you don't judge...I think." Bokuto stops walking back and forth, and stares at the bathroom floor. "Why Akaashi...why do you listen to me?..."

Stunned Akaashi, stutters on his words. "I- I- I- I don't know, Kou..." Bokuto scuffs in disbelief.

"You don't know...so what? You only helped out of pity?"