All New (SamMon)

Sorry's

Sam POV

Today Mon and I are going to meet with Tee,Kade and Jim

We didn't saw each other since the incident at Jim's house with her ex-husband

Now Mon and I are on our way to the restaurant where we will meet and we're both excited

Mon was looking on her phone, scrolling through facebook and I was concentrated on the road

But I was still in my thoughts

They didn't contacted me at all when I was with grandmother

Yes they took care of Mon for me but still,they didn't call....

Now I'm thinking....I apologized because I wasn't a good friend but maybe they should apologize too?

I mean,they weren't with me,I had literally no one to talk with when I was there

One year and I was already falling into depression

But I think I did already

I'm so confused,I'm always overthinking about everything

It still feels like a dream to me

Mon forgiving me and us get back together

Tee,Kade and Jim hugging me to reconcile

But I was the only one to say sorry

I said sorry for everything I did as a friend,as a lover

That's what friends should do right?

I keep saying sorry over and over,to them,to Mon

Even to Kirk

But I didn't reveived sorry

They left me....they barely talked with me,it wasn't like grandmother took my phone,I had it everywhere

Why I am feeling this?Like I should get some sorry from them

Not from Mon

From my friends

From my friends that didn't talked with me,that didn't asked me how I fell or how I am doing

If I didn't called them,would they call?

I think they wouldn't even say to me that Mon is back

I'm hurt

Not because of my lover,not because of my ex-fiance,not because of my grandmother

Because of my friends

I keep telling me that I wasn't enough but they didn't do anything for me in that period

I didn't exist for them

Like I was dead

And it hurts

So damn bad...

"Teerak?"

"Yes love"

Mon got me out of my thoughts when she called me,I didn't realized we are already in front of the restaurant

"We're here....you spaced out for 3 minutes now when I kept calling you"

"Sorry,I was just thinking... let's go?"

I was about to open the door when Mon caught my wrist to stop me

"Tell me what you've been thinking about"

"Mon..."

"Please Teerak"

"I was just thinking.....Tee,Kade or Jim didn't told me anything.Like I just kept saying sorry to them because I wasn't a good friend,because I wasn't there when they needed me but I realized...."

"You realized?"

"I realized they weren't there for me....everytime I was alone even when we were together before.When I was upset you were with Nop and after you left with him I sat on that bench and cried more than an hour when you were with them.When you left to England they were with you but never with me.I am thankfull because they took care of you but I felt like I have no friends"

"Love, it's not like that"

"Everytime I cried no one was there for me or to ask me how I fell.None of them were.I keep saying sorry but I didn't heard some from them,if I'm thinking more they didn't said sorry to me since we were kids"

Mon took my hand and stroked my cheek with her other hand

"They love you Sam.They truly love you but it's still true,they need to say some sorry's too because you said enough love"

"I don't know anymore..."

"Let's go Teerak,come on"

She got out and opened my door for me

I slowly got out and looked at her as we hold each other hands

"I should be the one doing that"

"Sometimes you need to let me do it"

And then she winked at me

Damn this woman

I'm still sore after what happened two days ago.She didn't had mercy at all

And the hickeys are still there also

I know she's proud of herself everytime she sees them

She's claiming me,marking me

I wonder about her reaction when I will tell her soon I have a meeting with Nita again

Me and Kirk have a project to do with her and it's necessary a meeting before

Anyway,the meeting won't be anytime soon

I think it's next month because this month were busy

I wonder if Mon wants to join me again...I want to make her the manager of the marketing department

But I need to tell Mon before this,I think when were home and calm I can say it

But I'm a little afraid

Mon can be very,very......jealous