Love is weird, isn't it? Like sometimes you find it so unexpected. I've heard more than once that how more you search for it, how smaller the change you find it. People also say love finds you, not the other way around. Wich is weird cause thats exactly what i did... I found love, in an unexpected place, thats for sure.
But i know for a fact that this love is true, it is real and it is unconditional. It wasnt easy though... Its hard loving someone when you know, or think you know they dont love you back. You just know they don't feel the same and that its wrong even thinking about them in this way.
You know you can't be with them but what if that's the only thing you truly want? When the only thing you want is to wake up, and them being the first thing you see, just smelling them. Their laugh, their smile, their voice, even their tears. Everything about them is just a blessing for your haert. It makes you complete. Love is not easy i know. Even the word itself...
Love, what does it even mean. For me, personally, i now know what it means, i can't explain it because its something you have to feel. But when you'll feel it you'll know its love. But what if you feel it for your best friend. You dont want to destroy the precious relationship you already have. What if you open your haert and they dont feel the same... they'll turn their back on you and you'll be on your own.
I was blabbering and going on like a record, barely breathing in between my sentences. When i was catching my breath for a second, a pillow hit me followed by the words 'ah pablito stop worrying, you're making yourself and me crazy. Literally you make my head tired' Aurora said sighing, while trying to hold her laugh.
I swear this girl, laughing with other peoples misery. I continue staring at the wall, drowning in self-pity. She broke the silence again by saying ' ah pablito, you and pedro are literally soulmates! I don't believe there is anything you can do to make pedro hate you, that boy loves you... even more than i do...' i grab the pillow she just threw at me and hit her head.
We were sitting in my room, just talking about life and stuff when the topic came up in the conversation. Aurora is laying on her belly on my bed, head on her hands, and her knees bend so her feet are up in the air, like all those cliché girls do in music video's. She is looking at me sitting with my back against the bed frame.
She noticed I am really not in the mood for jokes and she wraps her hands around my neck while putting her head against mine. Im normally not as vulnerable, Im tough and I dont cry this easily, but this whole situation is drowning me out. Without my approval and against my good will of hiding everything inside me, a tear escapes my eye and finds its way across my cheek. I quickly wipe it away, but Aurora already saw it. She sighs: ' ohw hermano...' she hugs me tighter and thats my queue to completely break down.
While having my meltdown, Aurora just kept on patting my back and trying to calm me down. A good 20 minutes later, i don't have any tears left and finally calm down a little. Aurora is still holding me as close as before, not daring to let go, scared I'll break again. I don't think she ever saw me cry... exept for when i met Lionel Messi but that was because of happiness.
She finally let go of me and stood up ' I'll go make you some food, clean yourself up a little bit' she said softly. She kissed my cheek, walked to the door and turned around one last time. ' Te amo mi hermano' she said, I weakly smiled at her ' I love you to hermana'.
I stood up and walked to the bathroom, i looked into the mirror... what a jumpscare! I looked horrible! My skin as pale as usual, eyes bloodshot and my hair laying anything but good. I got myself together, brushed my hair so it looked decent again. With a deep sigh I watched myself one last time in the reflection.
When i got downstairs, the welcoming scent of mac and cheese hit my nose, my favorite! I walked into the living room wich is connected to the kitching, there were a few candels and the tv was on, with the psg vs Lyon match! Aurora knows how much I love to watch Messi play!
I lay me down on the couch and start watching the match closely. Just a few minutes she comes into the living room with 2 plates of mac and cheese sitting down next to me. She hands me one of the plates and I literally almost stuff my face in the plate. She starts to watch the match with me even though she hates soccer, she only watches my games.
If only I didn't have my sister always by my side. 90 minutes later, PSG won with 3-0 with an hat-rick from Messi himself, twice assisted by Mbappe and once by Hakimi. Aurora didn't even survived the first half and fell asleep on my shoulder. I tried to stand up without waking her up, i succeeded. I made her as comfortable as possible and put a blanket on her.
I went upstairs and changed into my pajamas, wich actually exist of just boxer shorts. I layed myself in my bed thinking about everything. Not wanting to break again I closed my eyes and went to sleep, trying not to freak out about Pedro, who I'll be with the whole day tomorrow. Lord have mercy.
