Reconnected

Reconnecting

There he was. In the corner of my eye. It's been so long I barely recognised him. I saw his soft, golden brown hair blowing in the wind, his walk powerful but shy. That's how he was, how he's always been, shy but powerful. Im standing across the street just watching him, its been so long. 5 years. 5 years since we lost spoke, since we spent the night together.

I could feel someone watching me. I turned, and there she was. My first love. My true love. She looked amazing, she always did. It's been so long since i saw her, since i held her and told her we'd always be together. I needed to speak to her. But she caught me looking at her. She turned and began walking away. I ran after her, calling her name.

He saw me. I turned and began walking away. I couldn't bring myself to talk to him, not after how everything ended between us. I made it round a corner and heard my name being called, asking me to wait, to slow down. I froze. I couldn't move, I wanted too but my legs wouldn't let me. I felt a hand on my shoulder, I slowly turned and saw the warmest smile, the smile I fell in love with nearly 8 years ago.

I gave her the biggest smile as she turned to look at me. She looked shy, but gave me a soft smile. A smile i love. I wanted to tell her how much i missed her, how much i wanted to get in touch with her, but i couldn't scare her away. I needed to make her feel comfortable before we talked about that.

He asked if I wanted to go for a coffee and catch up. I agreed, I don't care what we do, I just wanted to be around him again. We sat down, chatted away, I listened to everything he said, taking in every word in case I never saw him again. I forgot how much I loved listening to him, no matter what he talked about I didn't care, I loved his voice, the comfort it gave me for all those years.

I talked for so long, i was sure she was bored of me. But i looked at her, her eyes were glistening, the way they always did when i spoke to her. I could get lost in her eyes. The way the sun reflected off her blue eyes, made them look like the ocean, pure blue water. We were reconnecting, and i loved every second, the memories all came rushing back. I couldn't leave after this conversation without telling her i still love her and want the future we always talked about together.

He was staring at me, looking me in my eyes. I couldn't believe I was sat here. With him. After five years. We were reconnecting and I loved it. I didn't want this day to end. I wanted to stay here with him, in this moment. Reliving all the memories we have together. I want him to hold me again and tell me we were going be together forever. But I was scared that his feelings were long gone. I still cared and loved him. The thought of what happened five years ago takes over, I tell myself that I can't let it ruin this moment but I can't stop it. I messed everything we had up, and I knew he wouldn't love or trust me again. I regret everything I did to him, I broke his heart, he waited for me, and I didn't go back to him, no mater how badly I wanted too. I need to say sorry to him and explain everything to him.

She explained everything to me. Why she regrets it, how badly she wanted to come back to me, and i listened to her. She was my everything, we were perfect for each other. No matter how many arguments we had, we always came back to each other, a little stronger than before. We shared so much together. She supported me through everything, i supported her through everything. We loved each other. People would call us toxic, but we were addicted to each other.

He listened to everything I said. He took it all in. He let me explain, and that's what I loved about him, he always listened to what I had to say. I was finished, I told him everything, except the fact that I still love him, that I still care for him, and that I want a future with him. The voice in my head told me not to say that, that I would scare him away. But my heart keeps telling me to tell him, confess to him, reconnect with him.

She finished explaining, but something was still on her mind, i could tell. I could always tell when something was bothering her. I knew what it was. I had the same thing on my mind. She needed to hear it. She needed to know that i still care and love her. I confessed. I saw the tears in her eyes, she was trying so hard to stop the tears from falling but they did. Her eyes looked beautiful as they filled with tears. I wiped them away, she grabbed my hand and held it. She told me that she still cares and loves me but was scared that i wouldn't want to be with her again. She was my first love, my true love. I needed her, and she needed me.

He told me. And I told him. The feelings and tension is still there, like it never left. He's my first love, my true love, I need him. He came and sat next to me, hugged me and let me sob my heart out. We were reconnecting and I loved every second. I wasn't going to make the same mistakes I did with him. I promised him, I couldn't. Ive changed, I'm not who I was, I wanted to make myself happy, not other people, and he made me happy. We were sat in the coffee shop for an hour before we both confessed how we feel towards each other, it didn't take long for our feelings to spill out, but I'm glad they did.

She has made mistakes, but i know just by sitting here for little over an hour that she's changed for the better. And i want to see who she's become. We've agreed to take things slow with each other, but im overjoyed that we've reconnected with each other. It just shows that no matter what happens between people, you can overcome it by taking things slow, and getting things out into the open. Being honest with each other has allowed us to try again, after so long.

I love her, with all i have.

Being honest with him has felt like a weight being lifted off my shoulders. This is our second chance, and I will do everything in my power to make things right with him. I can show him who I've become, without anyone being involved, it's just us. Me and him. Like it was meant to be.

I love him, with all I have.