I was completely exhausted in my bed, yesterday was the best day of my life. I was so happy. I got up and got ready. as i was standing in front of the mirror in the bathroom, i got a message i looked at my cell phone and saw that he had texted me.
A smile immediately crossed my face. He asked if I had slept well. I answered: yes, our meeting last night was very nice.
he wrote yes he found it too. I quickly got ready for school so I could see him before class, I took the bus to school and saw him there in his car.
my smile got bigger when i looked at his face again, i really fell in love but i didn't know why. i should actually meet with guys in my area, never mind. I walked over to him and got into his car he looked at me like yesterday and butterflies spread in my stomach.
we drove to a more remote place and he got out, he said i should go to the back Seats because it was more comfortable there. Of course I did, I didn't know that he meant it that way, we cuddled a bit and I wasn't happier than the last few months. I've been feeling really bad lately but he kinda makes me forget it all. we kissed and it got stormy from his side.
he put me on the back seat and leaned over me...
After that he drove me back to school, but on the way he let me out at a traffic light and said you can walk too.
I felt weird afterwards, I had no intention of doing anything like this I just wanted to feel loved but not like that.
I went to school but I spent the whole day thinking about why he wanted it so badly and I didn't.
didn't he love me at all? did he just want to take advantage of me? suddenly when this thought came to me I felt even worse than before. when did he fall out of love?
and why, i felt gross and used by someone i had only known a few weeks i was so desperate to seek safety that i had found it with the wrong ones.
he had said age is just a number and that you shouldn't pay attention to it, i believed him because i was so in love and i thought 7 or 8 years were still possible.
it was so stupid, and this emptiness i felt again almost killed me.
But the comming weeks...
