Y/n x crush

Getting ready for school /beginning of school :^

                  Tw not eating

My eyes blinked open , usually i would fall back to fall back to sleep but this time i was frantic and jittery.i jumped out of bed .5:34. Dang i'm up early.I couldn't wait to go to school. My heart jumps with excitement every time i see him. I started slipping off my clothes to change. And then slipping clothes on . Luckily i picked out my clothes yesterday, i've been wanting to be prepared to look pretty everyday so he looks at me. That makes me smile. I start doing my makeup. First foundation, then concealer. I couldn't stop thinking about him until i started doing highlighter. I realized that i had put way too much. I look to the side wall of my room , looking at all the posters i have. Just thinking about how much he looks at me . Every time he talks i feel like i look at his mouth more than Im supposed to. I snicker a bit. My body still aches. So i be careful when i got up from my desk.i jumped on my bed and sighed. "Oh c/n.." "Y/n?are you up?" I hear muffled, coming through the door. "Yeah mom!" I slightly yell. I look up at my ceiling. Wondering what he thinks of me. I turn my head to play with the lace on my duvet cover. I walk out of my room , my body filling with agonizing thoughts with each steps. Why? It's so random. I might have to see my counselor today. I won't eat breakfast today. I don't eat breakfast any day. "Are you going to eat breakfast today?" My mother asked me with a sad tone. "I will, i'll eat at school though." His name runs laps around in my mind. How his face is perfectly structured. How his smile brings me happiness . I love you c/n.I took caution every step i took. Not wanting my stomach to growl. I sip of my water. I basically live off of water. Not wanting to eat ever. Maybe that will make me loss weight finally. I took another sip. I need something to fill my stomach. So i choose water. It's day 8 of not eating. I eat dinner so my parents aren't suspicious, but i barely eat anything at all. I walk to the car, step by step, i worry someone might find out. I sit down in the car, slowly. I felt weak. His name again. C/n , c/n , c/n..the voice in my head whispers it so slowly its calming. I want to sleep. I want to escape.

At school:

I walk as slow as i possibly can.  Taking sips of water every 4 steps.1,2,3,4, sip,1,2,3,4,sip. The only con of filling up on water instead of food is that i have to go to the bathroom all the time. But that's it. I get closer to the gym where all the middle/high schoolers meet up before school starts. I walk through he gym. Whispers, and laughs fill the room when i walk in. They all laugh at me. " you belong on discord, emo bitch!"  I put my head down, shamefully. Walking faster to my friends. They'd don't hear what i hear from other kids. We laugh and joke around for 30 minutes, until the bell rings. "Dang it." I over hear from my friend. "I wish school never started." They say. I disagree. If school never started then i would never see him. How he smiles and laughs at my jokes and story's. How he stares deeply into my eyes when we make contact. I take a sip from my drink. I need a refill. I can't wait to see him. He makes me so happy. My heart jumps in excitement when I see him. I get knocked out of the fog in my mind when I walk into the room. I sit down, and open up my folder. I get my weekly questions for my class out. I watch the door in the corner of my eye, hoping to see c/n walk in soon. " Hi y/n!" My g/f says. I didn't hear him. My gaze is fixated upon the door. Impatient to see c/n. I rested my face on my hand, smiling. "Oh no, y/n is daydreaming about c/n.." "WHAT." I yell. "Uhm y/n?" Someone with a husky voice slowly says behind me . I remember that voice. How could i forget? It's c/n.. Did he hear what g/f said. "You daydream about me?" He says. His lips fade into a charming smile. I feel heat filling up my face , just like a fever. I bet i look like tomato..