Boys in books are just better

Wake up-(braychal ending)

I woke up gasping with my eyes as big as marbles. I was in a hospital room with dani in a chair bouncing her knee nervously and looked at the ground I barred my teeth and shouted "hey!-"

"Omg, thank goodness your ok" she said rushing to me and giving me a hug.

"Get of me you backstabbing b*tch" I said angered and pushing her off. She looked confused. "What do you mean" she asked.

"You kissed will, what am I doing here anyway? Where's will?!?"

"Who's will? You know I haven't had my first kiss. Your in the hospital after your and Brandon's little stupid dirt biking stunt." She said sitting on the side of the bed.

"What? No! I lived it all. I moved to Pennsylvania and then started dating this really hot guy named will then When I came home for Brandon's beach party you kissed him and will tried to commit suicide and ..."

"Hunny, your not moving to penn, remember, at the camping trip you and Brandon did a front flip but he didn't land it and you both rolled off the bank and Brandon broke his arm and you were out in a coma for 3 weeks after you hit a rock with your head rolling down the bank"

"But no.." now I was so confused.

"But will.."

"There's no will" she said back and I started to cry.

All that stuff and the horrible and amazing and kissing and dancing and fun and fear.

It was all a holutionaltion. I'd never moved or met will or prevented suicide or kissed Brandon or planned my future. It had all been a dream.

A thing my mind made up cause I was knocked out.

My evil mind teasing me with something I should have known was to good to be true.

At Least in the end.

I didn't want to accept it. it couldn't be! That ment Brandon never met Lexi and I'll never have future with will because he's a figure of my imagination. Just like all the boys I love from my books.

It dawns on me how My brain came up with the name will. from divergent. the boyfriend of tris' best friend who she shot in an alley while he was brain washed by erudite control.

I got jack from the titanic movie that me and Brandon watched a while back in the tree house then acted out the 'king of the world' scene over the railing on the treehouse while we giggled at how silly we were. the jack who Leo dicaprio played.

That name.

But It wasn't real

I was living my normal life in South Carolina were we shot dear and say Yall and I have my 2 best friends dani and Brandon and I think Brandon likes me and we watch tmr all the time in our tree house and cuddle and he holds my hand under the desk at school. I was living my life as a popular prep with Straight A's and the only reason I didn't have a boy friend was Brandon.

I was living my good life, no great life and all was well.

I fangirl over my obsessions and read my books with Tobias and Uriah and zeke and Peter and Thomas and newt and Minho and chuck and alby and Clint and Jeff and Ben and gally and peeta and gale and Cato and finnick and Michael and Bryson and all the other boys from my books.

Then, That stupid Brandon who did a dangerous flip in the first place. And now I've come to a conclusion.

That those boys in books are just better...
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If you are a wilaycal shipper stop reading after this a/n. I couldn't decide on the ending but I loved wilaycal so I wrote 2 endings. One with Brandon and the other with will. The last of this chapter is braychal's "happy ever after" but wilaycal shippers needed to read the coma part for that ship's ending to be right. I repeat IF YOU SHIP WILAYCAL DO NOT READ THE REST IF THIS CHAPTER. STOP NOW AND READ THE NEXT CHAPTER FOR WILAYCAL!!!!!

I warned the ships.

Braychal shippers may continue reading.

Epilogue----

I cried over my dream. My lost boyfriend. The awesome crazy fun horrible priceless life I lived in my brain for the last 3 weeks. Brandon came to visit me and was just like he was before I left for penn in the dream. He was the same cuddling, holding hand, hoddie giving, Brandon.

The thing was he wasn't the same in my mind. I knew that evil had to be there somewhere. I don't think he'd ever be the exact same in my eyes.

My heart was broken over something I didn't really even have in the beginning.
Like, legit my chest hurt.

Brandon tryed to cuddle with me in the hospital bed with his arm in its cast but it just wasn't the same. I couldn't fully relax.

That next week Brandon told me....

-flash back-

We were walking home alone after we dropped of dani at her house and Brandon passed his house to finish walking me home. When we got to my drive way he stopped.

"Raych, I felt like I was going to lose you a week ago and the worst feeling was to know that you'd never know. That showed me I need to tell you now and stop waiting and being shy.

I've been waiting since the 4th grade.

Rachel I love you and I want you to know I want you to be my girl friend." Brandon said shyly but finishing strong.

"Brandon, I've told you about the dreams. They still haunt me of the love that I thought I had. My hearts still not right, and now I don't think I could deal with anymore relationships right now even though I never really had one it just felt like I did and this all revolves around feelings and right now I just cant" I said and Brandon looked at his shoes.

"Well, you know now ,and like the erute say ,sometimes knowledge is the think that hurts you most" Brandon said.

"I'm sorry to do this to you. I know your not the person in the dream but the feelings of cheating and lies and fakeness of the whole thing still hangs in my memory. It won't let me forget" I said back.

"I get it," Brandon said and gave me a light hug.

"Bye raych..."

"I love you too" I said and walked into the house before I did something desperate and stupid like let my feelings give into the new offer of the relationship.

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Raych as ,like, 60 years old.

-_-_-_-

I look back on my history and it was odd. I had the bike crash with Brandon who I ended up marring on the 250 day of the year when we were 20. I gave up on finding my mr.perfect aka William Henderson.

Brandon is really good to me and really loving. I love him just as much and I found it in me to let go of will and all that and we had 2 boys. Named newt and Thomas for the maze runner.

Now as I sit on the porch at my parents old house in sc where I grew up then my kids grew up and moved out and where I'm growing old with Brandon.

Down in sc were we shot dear and say Yall and my teenage years were perfect even though I was a bit of a nerd. And I still have my 2 best friends in the world and I know Brandon loves me. Here in sc were I was born, grew up and will die. Never moved or anything.

I went to phicics for my dreams while I was still a teen, back then. Nothing ever worked. I knew it all wast real though it felt that way. I had to get over it but they said it was a 1 in a infinity chance to live a new transformed life while unconscious. They said it was normal to hallocenate and all that but to live a life in your head that felt like life it self all while on a hospital bed was unheard of until me. They still consider my case as the 'dream life of Rachel CROWN.'

I could live a million life times and never forget the way dream will leaned in his seat in class on the first day and whispered in my ear 'your cute when your awkward' and the way dream will would hold me close while we slept and run his fingers through my hair and kiss me passionately.

I could never truly forget, only let go.

I don't think I'll ever be able to let it go, fully.

I'll go to my grave knowing that I found the love of my life in a dream