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"Death leaves a heartache no one can heal, love leaves a memory no one can steal."

               Every morning started the same. For about two months after the "accident" as people call it, i awoke thinking she was still here. That she was waiting for me and my brother downstairs with her famous extra-stuffed omelets. That I would go downstairs and see my troubled but seemingly perfect mother with her hair up, and her apron on.

               Eventually I realized that she was gone. Forever. Never to come back. And I know I probably sound pathetic. Oh poor Addie lost her mother to a "random" house fire. But whatever... Things happen, people move on with their lives, and forget the ones who have lost theirs. That's not what I want to do.. I want to remember her, I don't want her memory to go away.

I'm so lost in thought about mom again that I almost don't realize that we're finally pulling into our new home's driveway. I look out of the window of dad's truck to see a picture perfect house.

I hate it.

"It looks just like the picture," Dad says. He's right, it does. Its huge, two stories and baby blue with white trimming. It's nice, but nothing will ever compare the house I grew up in.

I'm too tired to speak so I nod and unbuckle my seatbelt.

"Come on guys! At least act excited about our super cool house!" Dad exclaims. He's always the one cheering me and my brother Andy up. No matter how bad things are, he always has a way to make us feel better.

"Dad, come on now. We're supposed to be pissed." Andy huffs.

"Yeah, I mean, why did we even have to move all the way to Connecticut. Why couldn't we find another house in Aurora?!" I honestly dont understand the reason for us moving hundreds of miles away from home.

"Because, you guys," Dad's tone gets a little more serious, "we've been over this countless times. There's just too many memories there. We need a fresh start. Far away." He starts to tear up so me and Andy leave it at that, grab as much as we can and walk inside.

I walk inside and take a good look around.

This house is huge.

! I look over at Andy and see him smiling huge, so I smile. "FIRST COME FIRST SERVE!" Dad screams so me and Andy dash upstairs to find our new room. 

I run though the first door I find and suddenly fall in love with the room. "I CALL IT" I yell and slam the door, claiming my territory. It's huge.

I throw my bags down on the vacant floor and plop onto the matress that's already been placed. 

"Better make the best of this." I tell myself, outloud.