Stories I made up

Let me say goodbye

Tw// Heavy topics please read with caution!
Remember you are loved!

It's been a week since she's left. I can't feel anything. I've cried so many times, screamed so many times, done whatever to try to get this pain out of my chest and mind. Nothing.

I laid in my bed wrapped in my sheets. The lights in my room were off but a hint of sun shone through the opening in my curtains. The air around me felt thick and suffocating. Every breath felt like something was lodged in my throat.

My body was numb and exhausted but sleep didn't come. I thought to myself what the time is but I didn't care to check. Time felt slow and wasteful. I felt my throat burn, when was the last time I drank water? I guess it wasn't that important anyways.

The time continued ticking away as I remained solid in my place. Even my chest barely moved as I breathed. I felt like a statue, my body wasn't acting right. It had no reason to, everything felt lost.

I felt like crying again but the tears wouldn't come. I was out of them. It probably wouldn't have done me any good. Crying didn't bring her back.

My phone kept going off, I could hear the vibrations as notifications came through. Probably all from people I didn't even know saying "I'm sorry for your loss" or "Anything I can do to help?". I didn't want to hear that right now.

Another vibration came and for some reason this one felt different. It tempted me to look at it.

Carefully I reached for my phone and brought it to my face. I quickly scanned the contacts; 6 mom, 1 sister, 4 dad, 1 I am, 1 Daily pledge and finally 1 jane.

My eyes widened. No this wasn't right she's gone, I know she's gone. This is just a dream. I started crying. I felt sick to my stomach, who would pull such a sick joke like this?

Hesitantly I opened the notification, it read; Call me

My mind was telling me no but my heart ached for this to be real.

I sat up, sheets still wrapped on me. I went to the call button and contemplated pushing it. I don't think I was mentally prepared for anything I was about to hear.

I pushed the bottom and held the phone to my ear.

1...2...3-

"Hello?"

My body stopped breathing. There was no way this wasn't her. She sounded so far but so close. Her voice was echoey and distorted.

"J-Jane?"

"Aspen?"

"How did- I thought..."

My mind was racing. I couldn't even form the words I wanted to say so badly.

"My dear, I'm okay."

I cried even harder. This was fake my mind was just messing with me.

"W-where are you?"

"I'm right here, what do you mean?"

I tried to get my crying under control.

"Is it really you?"

"Of course it is I only have one number."

"Whoever this is please stop. It's not funny."

"I promise it is really me and this isn't a joke."

"Your dead though! How could you be calling me?"

This didn't feel right. I felt crazy, I know I'm crazy. There is no possibility that this is happening.

"I don't have much time unfortunately, I just wanted to say goodbye."

"W-wait please- I don't- I don't want you to leave. Not yet....Please stay with me."

"I want to. I really do but I can't, I have to go."

"But why?! Why do you have to leave? I don't understand. Why can't you just stay with me?!"

"It's so much more complicated than I can explain."

My chest was heavy and my tears flowed. I felt so overly exhausted and emotional.

"Jane please don't leave- I still have so much I need to say."

"My dear I promise you that I know everything..for now we must wait for time to pass and then I'll see you again and we can start over."

"I don't want to start over; I don't want to wait! I want right now- with you. I love you jane, and I'm so sorry I never said it before but I mean it I promise I do."

"I love you to, and I'm sorry that I left but i promise we'll see eachother again. I promise I won't leave you. Even after this call I won't be gone. I'm always with you aspen."

I felt something against me normally I would be creeped out but I knew that it was her. My hand rested on my shoulder and I squeezed it. This was the closest I would get to feeling her again.

"This isn't goodbye dear, this is just goodbye for now. I'll see you soon."

"Wait no- I don't want this to end. I still need you."

"You'll have me. Always."

"I love you so much."

"And I love you, from earth to heaven or wherever I land. I will always love you."

"I'll be okay. I want you to rest now. Even though it's hurts so badly I know it wouldn't be fair for you."

"I thank you for that. Goodbye aspen."

"Goodbye jane."

The phone went silent and I knew she was gone for good now.

My phone dropped on the bed and I continued sobbing. I couldn't help but smile though. Something about that last call made me remember why I even loved her in the first place.