15/06/22
9:05am
You should've told me you didn't love me no more,
Then I wouldn't feel this way,
You asked for this relationship,
I didn't force you into it,
Over and over, you'd plead,
Saying you couldn't live without me,
and you'd never let me go, was that just my imagination?
Said things you didn't mean,
"your I love you's", calling me wifey,
Calling me sweet names you knew I liked,
Were they lies?
Was it all fake?
"Happy mothers day, to the mother of my future kids" was what you'd post, mothers day-
Said children's day exists only cause of Mothers,
May 27th,
Every year I remember,
"i'm not like the others",
You were right, you were nothing like them,
You were definitely worse,
I should have known,
The very first time you let her feel you,
Her touch was nothing like mine,
We both knew this but since you said-
'it meant nothing', 'I love you, not them',
I believed you but-
They were all lies.
I tried, I really did,
I tried so hard to forget,
But you flew, getting ahead of me-
Before I could even take a step,
Those dirty lies, made you beautiful,
And I adored you, I loved your lies,
Those ugly lies, "they're just a friend",
I believed,
Sweet lies, causing my bittersweet tragedy,
I needed the comfort, you gave me that,
I deserved to be loved, you told me that,
And I accepted everything you gave,
Even though they were so little, (bare minimum)
Close to nothing-
Because it was from you,
I thought they meant the world,
I'm upset,
You should have never led me on,
You should've told me you didn't like me no more, you should have!
You should've told me,
Brought a knife to a gun fight,
Thats what got me killed,
Shouldn't have given you my soul,
When all you needed was my body,
Danger, scarlet red, like blood,
That was your favorite color,
Should've known you were a red flag,
They say "love is blind",
So I wore glasses, even with that,
still never got a clear vision of your flaws,
Our love wasn't blind, but I was,
I couldn't see anything wrong,
Or maybe I did, but it felt right with you,
you were the only color in my dark world,
Like red roses in a green garden, i thought you, Rare, but what we had-
wasn't Love.
"Don't worry about them",
So why'd you move on with "them",
Was it to hurt me?
How can one look so perfect?
yet have many flaws?
Why? I keep asking myself,
Did I not even deserve an explanation?
Or an apology?
Was it all an act? Tell me!
Sold me out, betrayal,
the first stage was denial,
Second was pretending to be unfazed,
Like I was unperturbed by this knowledge,
The knowledge that I'd been left behind,
Everything had been an act,
It was all a lie,
The script was perfect,
You were the villain in your own story,
Had me feeling like the main character,
Foolish, I was foolish,
Starved myself for months,
I never wanted to believe your lies to be true,
Lost my will to live,
I wanted to die,
You should've never made those promises,
If you knew you wouldn't keep them,
I loved you,
If only I didn't, it wouldn't hurt so much,
It's hard for me to heal,
Harder to let go because I never got an explanation,
You never apologized for how badly you treated me-
You never felt genuinely sorry,
You've left me scar'd and badly hurt,
Betrayed, I was betrayed,
In this end, I don't wish you peace, No-
I hope you get burned,
After all,
Its your betrayal and my hatred for you that's left behind.
~💜Ronnie.
